Changing lives - healing to create life and prevent death

Even thought I was given healing light in one of my meditations and later I went to learn reiki when I started feeing energy move in my body everytime I saw Reiki symbols; I prefer not to do healing, not even to my children when they are sick. The reason being that I start feeling the pain of the patient in my body for days after the healing. I was told that may be I unknowingly use The method of healing in which one takes on another's disease and then processes it in her own body. This person laughed at me and said, off course the other person will get better when you take it on. I have been told to use protection before healing session, so I don't get affected but I always skip this step.

Recently I found out that one of my colleagues sister is dying of cancer. He himself is a Reiki master and has given healing to her many times and saved her for years. Two months ago he was called to say goodbye to her which he wasn't prepared to do. He saved her once more and came back to work happy. This time I had sent healing to her and noticed that she is angry at something that happened in her childhood years. According to her brother, she is angry that her mother never loved her. This mother had eleven children and the people mentioned are the last two children. Weather the mother had time to love the children or not is besides the point when one is close to sixty years of age. The point is that the patient needs to forgive her mother for not giving her the amount of attention this child wanted but she can't seem to forgive her mother. I tried so hard to unpack her bags but there was one item left in her bag last time and I heard the words, " she would be saved in time". I never understood what does that mean? Why did she have three flowers in her hair when I saw her as a little girl?
Last week when I went to work, I found out that he has gone to say final goodbye to her. I felt sad for him. Then I caught very bad viral infection, apparently the the real influenza and was very sick for days. On the third day of sickness, I was so weak that everytime I tried to close my eyes for meditation, I immediately started seeing the purple swirl in the third eye. The moon was also about to go full in a day or two. I decided that I should utilise this time to do meditation and try to pray for someone who is desperate for a child but can't fall pregnant for years due to some cyst on the overy.

While in meditation, my attention kept going back to my colleagues dying sister, so instead I tried to send her some healing and unpack her bag fully this time. I took every single item from her handbag out and even tried to tear its insides to see if the was anything hidden that wasn't taken out. At that I felt that may be I shouldn't have done that. It felt like I didn't have the permission to stop her, so I mentioned my colleagues name and said that I am trying to heal his sister, so the connection is known and energy gets accepted. To my surprise she suddenly put on her glamorous red dress with embroidery, and hair done like a bride, took her little six year old self with her waving goodbye, ruining all my efforts to save her. I was shocked how suddenly she changed her mind just minutes after she had accepted the energy as if that was the most powerful thing she could do to get attention. I changed the colour of her dress and tried a few things but felt that she is determined to keep going back to her path of anger and that's why nobody can save her. It might take her a few lifetimes to learn to forgive.
I felt sad that I wasted my time and energy on someone determined to die for the sake of attention instead of doing something for someone who is praying for a child everyday. Why am I not helping them even when my mother had asked for help indirectly? I believe God is wiser and our efforts never bring desired results. Whatever God does is for a good reason but who was I to think that they should think of adopting a child instead of having their own, risking the month era life who has a cyst on the overy and can't fall pregnant. I have been asked, so I should try to help I thought and started praying for them. I was told that it would take six months for the cyst to go away, another 6-8 months for the girl to fall pregnant naturally and then 9 months for the baby to come, so it will all happen in the next 24 months. I was worried if the mother would survive after the birth. Upon asking, I saw her doing the child's hair when he was 3-4 years old. Then I asked what kind of a person this child would be? He seemed like a strong built warrior type. I didn't feel comfortable about the warrior thing, why would he need to be a warrior to spread his religion in the South India? So I asked, is that a good thing that he will be born altering the God's Will? Would the child have a good life? I heard the words 'ahankare marna' meaning will die because of ego.
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Warrior is a person who acts even in the face of fear, nothing to do with a war of weapons. Funny how I had to read this book which mentioned fear and warriors tonight. I love the universe, it always answers the questions, except sometimes I don't understand. Fear dissolves with conscious action and focuses on now. Read page 77 onwards and the next chapter is on anger. The book is Mystic secrets revealed by Edwin Harkness Spina. Two healthy responses to anger which is caused by unmet expectations is to act or accept reality. I can't believe the next chapter 'take back your power' is answering my question about my self doubt on weather it's right to heal and attempt to alter the course of life. I do listen to my inner master and that's the only time I heal and create, as per the direction from the higher self. 

Knowing the future - change it or not?

I was just looking at the Sikh calender to see important dates in Sep that might become my child's birthdate and the historical significance of those dates. I was expecting 18th Sep since 10th of August. Now that date is only two days away, 21st sounds better or 23th-24th and the speculation goes on.

 How interesting to find that Guru Nanak Dev ji gave the Guruship to Guru Angad Dev ji four days before he left his physical body - a clear indication that Guru Nanak always knew the grand plan of the universe and accepted it.
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Gurgadi Guru Angad Dev ji - 18 Sep
Joti jot Sri Guru Nanak Dev ji - 22 Sep

Another notable historical event is the departure of Guru Amar Das ji and Guru Ram Das ji falls on the same date, this year it is 16th Sep. The story goes that Guru Amar Das ji found out that his Son-in-Law Ram Das had a short life and he gave the remaining years of his life to Ram Das and made him the next Guru. I have been a non-believer that always suspected if such things are possible. So for people like me, its a proof that this is possible and the story is true. Otherwise, its a remote coincidence that the two depart this world on the same date of different years.
More info on Guru Amar Das ji on
http://www.sikhiwiki.org/index.php/Guru_Amar_Das
and on Guru Ram Das ji on
http://www.sikhiwiki.org/index.php/Guru_Ram_Das

For me, its still a delimma. Obviously, the 1st option is acceptance of God's Will. Sometimes in life, especially when its a decision of the death of a younger person, it can be difficult to accept. I wonder if it is necessary to sacrifice something to take another? I understand, especially after my prayer to Guru Nanak that did work; that spiritual energy can be converted into anything that can be the price you pay for your request. Now there is a good reason why we should worry more about collecting spiritual energy by regular meditation that worry about collecting money only, for security.

Read a beautiful story on the link I have pasted - Once during several days of rain while Guru Amar Das was riding by a wall which he saw was on the verge of falling he galloped his horse past the wall. The Sikhs questioned him saying; "O Master, you have instructed us, 'fear not death, for it comes to all' and 'the Guru and the God-man are beyond the pale of birth and death', why did you then gallop past the collapsing wall?" Guru Amar Das replied; "Our body is the embodiment of God's light. It is through the human body that one can explore one's limitless spiritual possibilities. Demi-gods envy the human form. One should not, therefore, play with it recklessly. One must submit to the Will of God, when one's time is over, but not crave death, nor invite it without a sufficient and noble cause. It is self surrender for the good of man that one should seek, not physical annihilation."

Past life regression

I have never done past life regression but have definately done afuture one by accident. In my session all I was doing was breathing shallow from bboth nostrals, as if i was sniffing and trying to smell something. Within minutes I saw an old lady who asked me to walk behind her and too me to her house. Later I asked my friend who told me this technique, who has done Vippassana meditation, "Who was this lady in my meditation?" She replied, "Are you sure that all the ladies in your meditation were not yourself in different stages of life?" When she said this, it clicked to me that this old lady had same long hair as myself and the same body frame. And strange enough I walked behind her as if I was her shadow and didn't see myself physically in it.

She the technique for past life regression mentioned in the source pasted below. I have never tried it, see how you go and please leave comments.
http://www.healpastlives.com/pastlf/exercise/exregres.htm#Background

Background: Everyone has the ability to access their own past lives. You can train yourself to access your own past life memories through a past life regression that you conduct on your own at home. [Audio Available]

Goal: The goal of this exercise is to allow you to explore your past lives while alone in a safe and pleasant manner.

Preparation:

1. Most people need to do this exercise daily for at least a month before they begin to get anything that is meaningful about their past lives. So you will probably need to have some patience with the process. Yet if you are patient and have a sincere desire to do further past life journeying, you will be successful.

2. Remember to do this process slowly. You must focus on completely relaxing your body and your mind so that images of your past lives can be brought gently into your conscious awareness. Each time you do this exercise you will go ever more deeply into yourself. The deeper you go, the more answers you get.

3. Ask for your Higher Self, your Guides, your Guardian angels, and whatever other servants of the universe you like to be present for the entire session and to keep you safe and protected at all times.

4. Being comfortable is the key. You can lie down (recommended) or sit up. If you opt to sit up, you must be supported and feel fully relaxed and comfortable. Be sure to loosen any restrictive clothing

5. Do this exercise in a peaceful place where you will be completely quiet and undisturbed for the entire session when you are fairly well rested (so you will NOT fall asleep) . This entire exercise should last for NO longer than 45 minutes. Set an alarm or timer to snap you out of it should the session run longer.

6. Pick a special intention for you past life journey. It could be "what I most need to see", "what I most need to heal", or "the explanation for my life's purpose", "about a past personality", or "a special need".

How to Do This Exercise:

1. Take some deep, refreshing breaths until you are totally comfortable and relaxed in whatever position you have chosen (it should take you no more than 3 minutes to get comfortable).

2. Close your eyes and envision a golden white ball of healing light. Send that ball of healing light to each part of your body in turn. Start with your feet, go up your calves, over your knees, along your thighs, through you hips and stomach, along your torso, though your chest and heart, along your shoulders, along your arms, to your hands, back up to your neck, and through your head until you are relaxed.

a. Scan your entire body looking for any places that are not relaxed. Immediately send relaxation to any part of your body that is tense. Do that until you are totally relaxed and peaceful.

b. You should be in a place of perfect peace and stillness. Your body should now be filled with beautiful healing light. Take a moment to bask in it: feel it's warmth and it's safety.

3. Go inside and connect with your inner vision. On the screen of your mind, imagine a closed door at the bottom of a staircase. See yourself walking to the staircase. See yourself slowly walking down the stairs. When you get to the bottom of the stairs, you will see two things.

a. On the LEFT side, there is a very comfortable couch. You will rest on it for a moment while you gather your thoughts about what you want to get from your journey through time.

b. On the RIGHT side, there is a door with big red letters on it which say "MY PAST LIVES". Right now, the door is closed. Behind the door is the gateway to your past lives.

4. While you are sitting or lying on the comfortable couch, let the love of the universe surround you. Know that at all times, you are completely safe and protected by all your guides.

a. If you do not want to go through the door, that is just fine. It does not matter why. Give yourself permission to relax and just enjoy being on the comfortable couch.

b. If you do want to go through the door, rise from the couch and move in front of the door.

5. Before starting your journey back through time, you need to declare the following to the universe. This is absolutely necessary to make sure that your past life journey is a safe and pleasant one.

a. "Throughout this journey through my past lives, I am always completely safe and protected."

b. "I will see, hear, and experience everything about my past lives as if I was watching a movie. Just as a movie cannot harm me, my journey through my past lives cannot harm me."

c. "I am clear on my intention for my past life journey which is…. (what you prepared above)."

6. Open the door. If the door does NOT open, then the universe is telling you to go back to the couch. If you chose to continue, it is your choice. Just consider that it might be for your own good to stop. When you are ready, go inside the "Past Life Room". Inside this room, you will see two things.

a. On the wall of the "Past Life Room", there is a WHITE SCREEN with BLINDS over it that is shut and down.
b. On either side of the white screen are two buttons: one is GREEN and one is RED.
c. On the LEFT, the GREEN button opens the blinds and shows you your past lives.
d. On the RIGHT, the RED button closes the blinds and takes to back to the safe, comfy couch.

7. When the blinds go up, you will see an image of yourself in a past life. This will be the past life that you most need to see or the past life that most closely matches your special intention.

a. Look at yourself in the screen. Once you have a clear view of the individual who was you in a past life say "Action". The movie of you in this past life will not start rolling until you do so.

b. If you are having difficulty seeing yourself on the Past Life Screen, ask to see the feet of your past life personality. Try to see what it is that you are wearing on your feet. Are they shoes, sandals, boots, or are your feet bare?

c. Once you see your feet, slowly look up to see the rest of you. Once you are in focus, look at yourself on the screen. Take a moment to steady the image, then say "Action!".

8. Whenever you are ready, press the GREEN button to open the blinds and begin your journey. The first time keep your journey to 20 or 30 minutes. Only go longer once you have had more practice.

9. Whenever you feel your journey has ended or if the alarm goes off, it is time to come back. Reach to your right and press the RED button. You will be back at the comfortable couch. Take a few minutes to rest there. Then get up and walk back up the staircase to where you began your journey.

Like a deep sea diver come back up slowly to the surface of your conscious awareness. You have been to a deep place within you and you must re-adjust to your normal waking state.

Example: The point of doing this exercise is to delve into your past lives. Unlike a movie, this is always an intensely personal journey that will speak to you on many levels. It will be different for everyone since everyone is unique. When you first start journeying through time, ask to be shown pleasant past life images so you can master the process. I wish you well on your journeys to the inner worlds.

Credits: by Ellen A. Mogensen with the inspired help of the Guardians of Time