One can't find God due to one's own efforts alone

P. 261 SGGS
Lekhe katah na chootiyai
Khin khin bhulanhar
Bashanhaar bakhash lai
Nanak par uttar.

Tudh bhavai tan bakhash leh
Khhote sang khare
Nanak bhavai parbraham
Pahan neer tare

If one tries to fix his karmas and find God, its is almost impossible to do so. Any righteous act that you will perform including the three Guru Nanak recommended - Kirat Karo, Vand Chhako te Naam Japo -honest living,  charity and meditate on God's name, will no doubt generate ego.

Simply getting rid of the EGO is a task in itself. There is always a danger of having a feeling that I do / don't do ..., therefore, I am better than others. EGO can be so subtle that it becomes difficult to be recognised. In the later stages of spiritual life, one thinks that they have been very cautious and have no ego. The moment your mind tells you that you have no ego, believe that you  have it.

When I was meditating everyday, I was upset with my husband because he wasn't. Somewhere in the subconscious, I was superior to him for that reason. It's only when the desire to meditate vanished for no apparent reason, that I realised that without God's grace one can't meditate, just because of their own effort. So I learnt to thank God everytime I have the longing to meditate and be one with God. This longing to meditate and to be able to meditate is a blessing, not a result of our own efforts alone. Without God's grace, meditation is merely a breathing exercise or an effort to control the mind's chattering.

As we are humans, we make mistakes all the time. Which of the past and present life karmas are we going to undo with our own efforts? Past life regression therapy deals with such issues. It takes several sessions to understand one aspect of a person's life and then more effort to accept things as they are and to forgive the perpetrator of the wrong deed. How many lifetimes would it take to undo all those Karmas that are a hinderance in your life?
You don't need to have done a certain amount of good deeds or to undo all past deeds to receive God's grace. You merely need to accept life as it is and be grateful for it. The most unfortunate event of your life might be the one that will actually highlight how lucky you are. It is generally when we are at the lowest point of our life that we think of God.

'Dukh Daru Sukh Rog Bhaya' is my favorite line of gurbani that has been so true in life.

Shalok, First Mehl:
Suffering is the medicine, and pleasure the disease, because where there is pleasure, there is no desire for God. You are the Creator Lord; I can do nothing. Even if I try, nothing happens. You are the True Lord and Master;

Your Praise is so beautiful. One who sings it, is carried across. Why praise God and how does the praise help carry one across? So what is the difference between God and the humans he has created. Everyone desires praise. I was wrong. God doesn't long for our praise. The true praise comes from the feeling of gratitude. (See a previous blog on Gratitude for more detail). When this feeling is generated, it expells the effect of all karmas, while we are feeling gratitude, and at this time you will have the Grace of God and a miracle will happen. Have you got any reason to feel gratitude towards God? I can only find a billion reasons, so far.

Trapped emotions cause disease and karma - release them

The Emotion Code - How to Release Your Trapped Emotions/ by Bradley Nelson. I should read this book. Here is a sampler of Chapetr 5 of the book, I haven't read yet.
The-Emotion-Code-5-Chapter-Sampler

Searching for info on the strange triangle revealed in meditation

 I had a weird meditation last night. I was inspired to focus on a point on the crease between the right thigh and the trunk of my body. 2nd point i was shown was on the left shoulder making a diagonal line and the third point was on the crease on the left side of my body, between the trunk and the thigh, making a 90 degree triangle. When i meditated by saying Moolmantra - one word on one point, I felt the diagonal line from 1st point to the shoulder very strongly but couldn't perceive the 3rd point as strongly.

As I kept going, I felt energy moving  and probably healing different points within the triangle. I somehow understood that may be the 1st point is the Earth point where all Memories are stored, 2nd point is where the reflecting mirror is and the 3rd point where the 2nd line is projected, according to the hologram. The stored Memories create the Karmic conditions and are projected by the mirror on the shoulder, resulting heath issues in the triangle. This triangle is then projected on the remaining portion of the trunk.


So I am desperately looking for information on how the Hologram theory and the sacred geometry apply to the human body. I found interesting Aboriginal philosophy on healing on the site below. I will keep looking.
Source: http://www.holographickinetics.net/octave%20of%20spirit.html

Density 1** [octave 1] Man starts off gullible, totally unaware and an easy prey for many other dimensions to manipulate as he now starts to move through levels of growth, the lowest level is cannibalism and living off survival and animal instincts.

Density 1** [octave 2] The next level man moves to is he has no emotions or feeling, he lives off instincts as other dimensions experience this dimension through his body he is still not aware.

Density 2** [Octave 3] Minimally aware, develops feeling of flight or fight, though he has no control over them, he is still an easy vessel for other dimensions to enter and experience this molecular dimension at their will, now these other forces can experience feelings through his body.

Density 2 ** [Octave 4] Starts to become aware, yet not fully aware of the manipulation of others or other dimensions, aware that there is something more than what has been going on in the last density level, aware of his consciousness, emotions and feelings and what he thinks is free will.

Density 3 **[Octave 5] Aware of being aware, and the desire to be in control of his emotions, feelings and thoughts aware of his free will to make his choices although he acts on response creating reaction. His own internal life forms, this is when the cunning games of entrapment start.

Density 3 **[Octave 6] Aware at times that there are other forces within you and manipulating your thoughts into doing and saying things that are not you. Aware that you want to be in control of you and stop the struggle and manipulation from within you. Now you have the invading forces worried your starting to take control and think for yourself.

Density 4 **[Octave 7] Aware of free will and start questioning the reason for ones existence, seeks answers through spiritual integration and growth, This is the level that other dimensions can't stand you being on, as they start to loose control of you, so they then bring out the big guns, and you come under attack. The attacks will come as they take over a body of someone who is still in a lower density level, easy to control, that person will be the closest person to you, your mother, your father, your son or your daughter, you closest friend, your neighbour, you boss, your teacher, it will be somebody close. While in the body of that person they will intimidate you, if that doesn't work they will manipulate you into a situation that they will set up, if that doesn't work, they will use aggression and if that doesn't work, they will use conditional love, such as, "If you love me you will, you don't love me or you would." etc. This is a final desperate act to having you drop your guard, so that they can gain access to you.
In relationships you will find sometimes one partner will stay in a lower density level, and the other will move into a higher density level, when this occurs it will be represented by a constant barrage of attacks by the lower density level being, towards the higher density level being by other forces.

Assist your partner by attempting to make them aware of the attacks, when one is being manipulated by other forces, they become aware that they are doing things that they have no choice of doing, or they may say things that they know was not them, it came out of their mouth, but they had no intention of saying what came out of their mouth.

Density 4 **[Octave 8] This Octave level is where one becomes stuck in the repeat cycles of time, it represents infinity cycling over and over again unaware why, man now becomes more aware of his independent, individual free will and choices and seeks more understanding of his internal world and integration with his spirit in an attempt to escape the repeat cycles of time.

Density 5 **[Octave 9] This octave level is about integration with his spirit and soul he becomes aware of Lore of ethics and integrity and dealing with the cause and effect of his created patterns, he becomes aware that there is no wrong or right but a point zero, where there is no swing and he is able to observe all games with non judgment, the true meaning of unconditional love. He becomes aware that everything happening now, has happened before and every thing happening now, will happen again unless he makes changes to the past, to change his future, his spirit starts to awaken from its amnesia, he starts to change by taking responsibility for all his internal created realities. so he enfolds space/time and changes the created patterns of the past which in turn change the future.
Density 5 **[Octave10] The last octave level is the awareness of all of the above and aware that they no longer need a physical body, and that if in balance with the supreme creator, the spirit and soul will be free to choose its next dimensional universe of creation. This world and us as humans, being a part of this dimension of time and space, is heading for the end and therefore the beginning of a major cycle that must end as we know it, allowing all humans and others that have reached the ninth Octave and are ready for a higher density level, to merge into the tenth octave which is the beginning of that next dimension of reality

KARMA - not just past actions: a profound experience

Gurbani Says, "Karmi Avai Kapra". The birth happens according to one's Karma's. The birth itself here means the monetary as well as other social conditions in which a person is born, the parents and other relationships that he comes into contact with, during his lifetime and the life events are all chosen carefully.
 They are chosen according to KARMA - past life THOUGHTS (including DESIRES and MEMORIES) as well as ACTIONS. 

The past life EMOTIONS (MEMORIES), DESIRES AND ACTIONS collectively indicate the path the soul wishes to take for its own spiritual development. Until we realise what  LESSON we were meant to learn from a certain situation, for our soul's development; we are faced with similar situations again and again. So if you think why it always happens to me, don't see yourself as a victim. Try to ask the question - What is it that I am meant to learn from this? The moment you realise that, you will no longer be handling that problem again in life. The soul will move on to the next lesson. Life is not about collecting wealth or status but about your soul's development. This development process doesn't end when one physical life ends. This process continues until the soul has no more DESIRES AND MEMORIES. This the point of Soul's development that Buddhist call Nirvana, Hindu's call Moksha, Sikh's call Mukti and Christians call it Salvation I think.


There are two paths we can choose from, to reach the final stage of our Soul's development. One through KARMA Yoga - by trying to do the right action. The reason we need to do this is that the moment we do something wrong by someone, we are trapped in their MEMORY. Therefore, we are bound in a relationship with them by KARMA, ready to build the framework for the next encounter in this life. If the emotional issue is not resolved in this lifetime, you are set by KARMA to have a relationship with this person in the next lifetime and the next, until both soul's have learnt their lesson and have built enough COMPASSION to forgive every past action and no longer have the desire to either LOVE or HATE this particular soul. LOVE and HATE are both bondages that create KARMA. The second method is by NAAM JAP - Meditation.


How did I realise this? Theoratically I have known this all along. But I had a very strage meditation experience that made me realise this in a profound way.

MEDITATION EXPERIENCE when I tried to get rid of the Karma

In meditation, I prayed to relieve me of any karmic relationship with a specific person. I prayed to settle the account right now.


I do not want any desires or emotions, +ve or -ve, attached to this person. So far I had tried to not keep any hard feeling. Every effort to help this person by sending the healing energy, guiding to meditate etc obviously had failed miserably as the psychic dreamwalking revealed. I didn't want to do shielding for this reason anymore. I wanted a lasting solution.


So here I am in deep meditation and suddenly the energy started rushing straight out from my heart centre straight towards this person with a feeling of compassion. I was puzzled and tried to interrupt saying I do not want any kind of relationship. And why is the energy going out from within. This has never happened before. Every other time, the energy has come inwards from outside. I was worried that my collected energy is being used. Then I thought of many other people that I have grudge towards and thought while a flood of compassionate energy is being released with such force, I may as well give it to other people that I don't want any -ve emotions towards. So I visualized a few other people but the energy just kept going to this person ignoring the people in between, within that straight line. I can't tell what was the colour of that energy. Was it green. or purple or a mix? I don't think it was 100% clear like water, like the colour of the pranic energy that comes from above.



Later I realised that I had asked to settle the score and give this person whatever I owe him. So the energy released in his direction was what I owed, which I would have to give over the years or lives. When no more  energy could be released, it stopped as if there was no more of it left. Then I saw a very grand building that was being built. Next the building was gone and even the foundation of the building had been ripped and all that  was left there was the dug up soil. So I understand that all KARMA has been released and I am back to square one in this particular case. Yes, I feel the equilibrium from deep within.

LESSON 1: Do not take your emotions lightly. Any thought, no matter how small, is shaping your future and affecting others involved in your thought. The worst part is that if you have a -ve thought about the other person, it first affects you before it affects the other person. 

LESSON 2: The soul doesn't see a difference between you and the other person. At soul level we are one. So to heal yourself, you have to heal the other person at the same time. 

LESSON 3: when you say, "I don't care what the other person thinks of me. I know I am ethically right." It is not enough. The other person's desires are also shaping your future.

Past Life Regression theraphy helps heal Karma issues

I have been reading the book "Through time into Healing: how past life regression theraphy can heal mind, body and soul by Dr Brian Weiss". This book is written by a Dr giving pages full of examples on how this therapy healed different people in different situations. In the Appendix, it also gives you steps to go through your own regression session. The author has made clear thro several examples how souls incarnate in groups and change relationship, genders and roles but continue facing same challenges until they learn their lesson and are ready to move on and the most important thing is LOVE, not to get through life as a materially successful person. My dad use to talk about souls coming and going in groups.

This morning I had the insight that the regression method is a long winded road. Even after the healing of one aspect which might take several regression sessions, you still have other issues and the new issues will crop up as life goes on. So this is not the best solution or the road for me.

When I had a successful meditation session and the green healing Gemstone came inside and sent green healing energy to every cell of my body, that was real magic. I didn't need to think of any particular parts of my body or of events that would have given me those injuries. It simply healed the whole body. I use to suffer lower back pain as well as really bad shoulder pain. It all went in seconds and never came back. That is why Guruji says that when you Jap Naam - Meditate on the creator, all your Karma's nullified. You no longer need to suffer those injuries from past negative memories and no longer need to come again to repay these souls that you have been re-incarnating with. So meditating and remembering God without asking for anything is better than Regression therapy and also better than asking for petty things.

Read the following article, it has great information on emotions and how they affect us in the long term.Regression Therapy

Also see this video on Hypnosis,  After watching this I realised that Regression is also going into hypnosis state and meditation is actually Self-hypnosis where we get rid of rubbish programs of our brain, stuffed by other people and situations and reprogram ourselves.

Rehras- straight path to true self

Guru Nanak's writes in the question answer form.
Describing the door to lord's mansion from where he watches and sustains his creation -
Guru Nanak says

Vaje Tere Naad Anek Asankha,
Kete Tere Vavanhare ....
Countless strains of vibrations (Naad- essence of all sounds)are there, and many are the holders of those vibrations [ am I right?]. This corresponds with the vibration theory and the hearing of sounds like bells ringing in the solar plexus chakra etc mentioned in another blog.

Kete Tere Raag Pari Syon Kahian, Kete Tere Gavanhare
How many sing your raags (classical music) like fairies,
How many are singers of your praises [can't be counted!]

Gavan Tudhno Pavan, Pani, Baisantar, Gavai Raja Dharam dware
The wind, water and fire sing of you, a suggestion of five elements in the temple within, sing at the door of the divine's justice. I have already mentioned my inner temple as I saw, in the last blog.

Gavan Tudno Chitra-Gupat, Likh Janan, Likh Likh Daram Vichare
The secret image recorders (chitra-gupat) also sings of you. By recording they understand, by recording and recording the images they deliver justice. This corresponds with the Buddhist and Hindu philosophy. Vippasana meditation in which a person concentrates on the nostrils only, watching the coolness of breath, as if trying to smell really works and you see images of yourself doing things that you have done in the past except, you also notice the things like the furniture around you etc which you never noticed before, as it was part of daily life. Now you watch the same events as an outsider and the movie is much clearer like a full HD version.

One can also choose to see the future. In this case, you may not recognise these people of the same sex as yourself and you might mistaken them as other people. I made this mistake. When I saw this old lady coming back home from her morning walk, in front of me and said to me,"Let me show you the house." I only felt myself walking behind this old lady with long hair and a stick, I didn't see myself. I walked behind her on the front pathway, then she knocked on the door. I door opened and as I felt this old lady step in, I noticed another lady in her mid fifties standing near the door. I wondered where the children and the men were. It felt as if there were no lights on and house without many people. I asked why do you live here, as if I wanted them to be in the open, enjoying the sunlight and the fresh air. The middle aged lady replied but we each have a room to our self, meaning they felt secure in the house. To me they were secure but not enjoying the nature as much as they could. I was sorry for them, besides the fact that the double story brick house was expensive.

I asked my friend that has done a ten day vipassana course and she pointed out, Are you sure that these ladies were not you in different ages?" That's when I realised the old lady had exactly as long plat as mine, except she had shrunk in height a bit, which does happen in old age.