Experiences and visions before death

I have been in New Zealand since 27th June, 2010 to attend a funeral of a beloved relative. During my stay I asked close relatives how she felt a few days before she passed away. I was amazed to hear some of the things relatives told me.

This relative was prepared for death as she had breast cancer for nearly five years before the cancer spread to the liver. Three months before she died, the doctors had told her to tidy up her affairs as she might go. She use to console her relatives by saying, "My job here has finished and God has other work for me somewhere else." She also use to say "I have come to this place to grow and learn lessons. Some people take a lifetime to learn those lessons and still don't learn them. Others come for a short time and learn many things." She also said, "Everybody's journey is different. In my journey, with my health problem, I have come to learn a lesson and people might see me as suffering but even in that there is a blessing. When I look around me I see people who are going through much more than myself. Life is for the living so enjoy it."

She had asked her mother, "Who are you?" The mother thought my daughter is under the influence of morphine and doesn't know what she is saying. Then the daughter said, "Mum you are a light, part of a bigger light. We are like candle lights, you can make many out of one but in the end they all one again."

On the 20th June, the mother and daughter were sitting in the room. They saw a fantail bird was flying around near the front door of the house. Fantails don't usually come that close to the house but Maori people believe that if a fantail comes inside the house, someone is going to die.

On the afternoon of 22nd of June, She saw someone standing outside the room that no one else saw. Looking outside towards the front door, she said at 6 pm approx., "They are standing outstanding." They have come to get me but I am not ready to go. She was waiting for her partner to come back from India and didn't want to go while he was away. "Where", asked mum. Mum, you won't see them. Mum asked, "What do they look like?" She replied, "They have white clothes on." She said, "I am not going. I am not ready to go."

On the 23rd June, she was sitting on the sofa and looked out the window at around 7pm and she said, "Mum they are out there. They are still waiting for me. They are not going away and I don't want to go."

A couple of hours after she took out her two rings that were of sentimental value to her and gave them to her daughter and said, "I don't need them anymore." They were the only pieces of jewellery on her body.

On the 24th June, she was not herself. She stayed very quite and kept doing things that they normally do. She wasn't asking for food etc. She was in a lot of pain, had morphine pump. She died on the 25th June at 7am.

The first night I slept in the house of the relative who died, I felt very uncomfortable and cold feeling in this particular room. Then I saw a vision of a man with a turban but I couldn't see the features of his face as it was so dark black. I felt the black was representing the dark feelings and actions of this personality, who was watching me from approx five meter distance, as if to judge me or hurt me but he couldn't. I told my relatives what I felt and suggested that they organise reciting of the Guru Granth Sahib ji at there house, in that room to dispell the bad energy of the being that I saw. They agreed and the very next day we started Akhand Path of Guru Granth Sahib.

My relative that died also use to say the similar things, so they didn't find it hard to believe me. After starting the Path, I mentioned this particular dark energy to another family friend that I met at their house, who they said is someone who knows healing and understands spiritual concepts. He told me that such energies also want light but don't know how and we can help them by inviting them to listen to the Path and help heal themselves.

When it was this guys turn from 2am - 4am, he invited this energy and asked him to bring along his friends that are with him, so they can also benefit from listening to the Guru Granth Sahibs reciting of the Path. I woke up at 2.45 am, had my shower and went to this room, did my Nitnem and then started listening to the Path and continued doing so till 4.45 am before I started reading it myself as it was my turn from 5am - 6am. Sometime while listening, I felt like meditating. Since I couldn't speak as the Path was happening, I started breathing loud and listening to that breath, hoping soon I will have Surat / Dhyana inwards and will be able to do silent meditation. I had only started doing this for less than 2 minutes that I had this vision that some fat fair skinned, flatish nose New Zealand Native guy was sitting right next to the Guru Granth Sahib. He turned around and gave me a look as if my loud breathing was disturbing him from listening to the Path and he was offended with me. I immediately stopped the meditation and started listening to the Path. Later on I shared my experience with this Pal guy I mentioned above, I was so surprised when he added that there was someone between you and me, while I was doing the path. He further said that there was a whole tribe of them listening to the Path.

On the third day of the Akhand Path Pal came up to me to say that the particular energy we were talking about first finally disolved at the very last minute of the Path. The first day he invited him, he said that it was reducing in size every minute it was listening to the Path. I never knew Akhand Path has so much energy to relieve so many energies in one go. I liked Pal's explaination that this is the reason that we should always do Path out loud, so we can bring that energy into the physical world. We never know who might listen and benefit from it. I wish people at my gurdwara understand this concept. I like listening to Path or Kirtan while close my eyes and meditate. It helps get into deep meditation quicker and also generates Birha / yearning. Since I live so close to the Gurdwara, I like going there in the early hours of the morning to listen to the Akhand Path or late at night but everytime I come home disappointed as the pathis don't recite loud enough and don't turn on the mic either. They are worried about finishing the Path on time and doing the right amount of pages in an hour to catch up, instead of worrying about listening to what is being read and who is there so eager to listen. On the other hand, the sewadars in my Gurdwara, who do the duty of being in the Gurdwara during the Path are a nusense as they keep talking about the people in the community and disturb me with the noise of their chitter-chatter. They also look at me and wonder why I am in the temple as if I should only listen to the path when the regular sangat comes from 5 -7 pm for dinner. I am not interested in the dinner or the social gathering, I want to hear my Guru's word and be one with the feeling of meeting Waheguru. Why do they stare at me for being with my Guru? Tears!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is the mystery of 40 days?

Last night I went to listen to Surinder Singh Nanaksar Delhi wala's kirtan at the Thath (I am not a supporter of any place where Gursikhs are praised as Guru/Sant; a great Raagi just happens to reside there for a short period and I can't miss such an opportunity) from 6 pm to 7.15 pm as I have been from the last month. He did such fantastic kirtan that I kept meditating all through the kirtan. That was not enough. I wanted to meditate more. So I came home and started meditation on my bed. When got tried, I lied down and kept meditating. I wasn't asleep when I saw the death skull. Later I saw two Sikhs, one of whom was discussing something with the third that I didn't see. I am not sure how many more Sikhs were there. They weren't handsome or glamorous, skin colour was a bit on the dark side. I heard the unseen one ask the one that I could see to give me something. To this he replied that I still had 40 days, indicating that there is plenty of time for me to receive. I don't understand this.

I had thought a few days ago about meditating continuously for 40 nights and wondered how it was possible with my job and little kids. Was this conversation simply a reflection of that thought or it was real people of Yamraj, the God/ Incharge of Death suggesting that I still have 40 days before I die? I am not scared at all but puzzled. What gift was it that they had to give me within 40 days?

The other problem I have is that when I meditate and there is someone else in the room looking at me curiously, while I have my eyes closed and in deep meditation; I become that person. It feels as if I am that person not me. Then I have the deep desire what that person has. It happened when a pregnant acquaintance saw me at her Akhand Path. A few days ago when I was listening to the live kirtan, I saw the raagi sitting in my lower abdomen with his harmonium singing. Raagi was singing beautifully at the time, probably using all his energy from the gut.

I also had another silly thought. I visualised myself being in bliss on the death-bed and the raagi singing divine kirtan for me to listen. I wish Surinder SIngh ji could teach such nice kirtan to my son, so when I am near death, I have no difficulty finding a divine singer to fulfil my desire of listening to great kirtan continuously for hours on for days. According to one meditation sessions revelation, I am suppose to live till 84 years of age. Am I altering my destiny and shortening my lifespan by visualising my end time?

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23rd June, 2010

Betty Eddie wrote in her book 'Embraced by the light' that everything is first created spiritually before it is manifested physically. I am so shocked to realise that the three men I mentioned above, were Baba Thakur Singh ji, his bodyguard and the guy who records his live katha.

The bodyguard guy suggested to Thakur Singh to reveal the good news to me. Thakur Singh ji said something to the effect that there is some time before that happens. The bodyguard then told me about the Samagam at Minto gurdwara from 1 Aug to 7 Aug from 4 am -8 pm each day. That's what was to happen in 40 days. I suppose I better take time off work to attend this Samagam now.

I recognised the guy that records his katha as the same person that was standing in the background with his long beard. He didn't say anything but was there. The same thing happened yesterday, 22nd June at 12 noon approx, when I went to have a chat with him, this guy was quietly sitting on the carpet uninvolved. Does this indicate that the spiritual event happens, I am so shocked, 40 hours earlier than the physical event. I was meditating at 8 - 8.30 pm on the 20th June. I was only trying to solve the mystery of 40 days, I didn't even know anything about 40 hours. It has taken me another 24 hours after the physical event to work this out. Its nearly 12 noon now.

Now my brain in over working but I have to mention that the gestation period of a baby is also approx 40 weeks. So anything new that is created physically is closely attached to number 40.

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25th June, 2010

By the way I just remembered that Giani Thakur Singh ji's main message for everyone was to do 125 lakh Moolmantras in 40 days to get any worldly desire fulfilled or Waheguru if you want spiritual stuff. He did say that you may have to do these 40 day sittings several times, if you are demanding something really big based on the amount of bad Karma that needs to be negated before you receive the gift. I don't intent to ask for any worldly possesions or relations. I only want to have a permanent connection with the Nirankar and Guru Nanak, no matter where I am and what I am involved in, in terms of the eternal time.

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25th June, 2010

A beloved close relative died at 7 am this day in NZ. This is why I felt I was on the death bed and saw the death skull.

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13th July, 2010

Surinder Singh ji told me that their Jatha is leaving my town on 28th July, 2010. This means I will not be able to enjoy live Asa Di war kirtan every morning like I have been for some time now. This was my time to meditate while listening to kirtan. The kirtan helped me get focused quickly. I will be disadvantaged by the departure of this Jatha. Even the Jatha didn't know on 20th June that, in 40 days, they will be called to Melbourne, where they so wanted to go.

What actions help in the world after death?

on p.216 Guru Arjan Dev ji says in Gauree Raag

har bin avar kiraaa birathhae ||
Without the Lord, other actions are useless.

jap thap sa(n)jam karam kamaanae eihi ourai moosae ||1|| rehaao ||
Reciting (without devotion and understanding), intense deep meditation (WITH THE INTENTION TO ACHIEVE SPIRITUAL POWERS NOT TO BE ONE WITH THE GOD), austere self-discipline and rituals - these are plundered in this world (World after death of the physical body). ||1||Pause||

barath naem sa(n)jam mehi rehathaa thin kaa aadt n paaeiaa ||
Fasting, daily rituals, and austere self-discipline - those who keep the practice of these, are rewarded with less than a shell.

aagai chalan aour hai bhaaee oo(n)ehaa kaam n aaeiaa ||1||
Hereafter, the way is different, O Siblings of Destiny. There, these things are of no use at all. ||1||

theerathh naae ar dhharanee bhramathaa aagai t(h)our n paavai ||
Those who bathe at sacred shrines of pilgrimage, and wander over the earth, find no place of rest hereafter.

oohaa kaam n aavai eih bidhh ouhu logan hee patheeaavai ||2||
There, these are of no use at all. By these things, they only please other people. ||2||

chathur baedh mukh bachanee oucharai aagai mehal n paaeeai ||
Reciting the four Vedas from memory, they do not obtain the Mansion of the Lord's Presence hereafter.

boojhai naahee eaek sudhhaakhar ouhu sagalee jhaakh jhakhaaeeai ||3||
Those who do not understand the One Pure Word, utter total nonsense. ||3||

naanak kehatho eihu beechaaraa j kamaavai s paar garaamee ||
Nanak voices this opinion: those who practice it, swim across.

gur saevahu ar naam dhhiaavahu thiaagahu manahu gumaanee ||4||6||164||
Serve the Guru, and meditate on the Naam; renounce the egotistical pride from your mind. ||4||6||164||