Changing lives - healing to create life and prevent death

Even thought I was given healing light in one of my meditations and later I went to learn reiki when I started feeing energy move in my body everytime I saw Reiki symbols; I prefer not to do healing, not even to my children when they are sick. The reason being that I start feeling the pain of the patient in my body for days after the healing. I was told that may be I unknowingly use The method of healing in which one takes on another's disease and then processes it in her own body. This person laughed at me and said, off course the other person will get better when you take it on. I have been told to use protection before healing session, so I don't get affected but I always skip this step.

Recently I found out that one of my colleagues sister is dying of cancer. He himself is a Reiki master and has given healing to her many times and saved her for years. Two months ago he was called to say goodbye to her which he wasn't prepared to do. He saved her once more and came back to work happy. This time I had sent healing to her and noticed that she is angry at something that happened in her childhood years. According to her brother, she is angry that her mother never loved her. This mother had eleven children and the people mentioned are the last two children. Weather the mother had time to love the children or not is besides the point when one is close to sixty years of age. The point is that the patient needs to forgive her mother for not giving her the amount of attention this child wanted but she can't seem to forgive her mother. I tried so hard to unpack her bags but there was one item left in her bag last time and I heard the words, " she would be saved in time". I never understood what does that mean? Why did she have three flowers in her hair when I saw her as a little girl?
Last week when I went to work, I found out that he has gone to say final goodbye to her. I felt sad for him. Then I caught very bad viral infection, apparently the the real influenza and was very sick for days. On the third day of sickness, I was so weak that everytime I tried to close my eyes for meditation, I immediately started seeing the purple swirl in the third eye. The moon was also about to go full in a day or two. I decided that I should utilise this time to do meditation and try to pray for someone who is desperate for a child but can't fall pregnant for years due to some cyst on the overy.

While in meditation, my attention kept going back to my colleagues dying sister, so instead I tried to send her some healing and unpack her bag fully this time. I took every single item from her handbag out and even tried to tear its insides to see if the was anything hidden that wasn't taken out. At that I felt that may be I shouldn't have done that. It felt like I didn't have the permission to stop her, so I mentioned my colleagues name and said that I am trying to heal his sister, so the connection is known and energy gets accepted. To my surprise she suddenly put on her glamorous red dress with embroidery, and hair done like a bride, took her little six year old self with her waving goodbye, ruining all my efforts to save her. I was shocked how suddenly she changed her mind just minutes after she had accepted the energy as if that was the most powerful thing she could do to get attention. I changed the colour of her dress and tried a few things but felt that she is determined to keep going back to her path of anger and that's why nobody can save her. It might take her a few lifetimes to learn to forgive.
I felt sad that I wasted my time and energy on someone determined to die for the sake of attention instead of doing something for someone who is praying for a child everyday. Why am I not helping them even when my mother had asked for help indirectly? I believe God is wiser and our efforts never bring desired results. Whatever God does is for a good reason but who was I to think that they should think of adopting a child instead of having their own, risking the month era life who has a cyst on the overy and can't fall pregnant. I have been asked, so I should try to help I thought and started praying for them. I was told that it would take six months for the cyst to go away, another 6-8 months for the girl to fall pregnant naturally and then 9 months for the baby to come, so it will all happen in the next 24 months. I was worried if the mother would survive after the birth. Upon asking, I saw her doing the child's hair when he was 3-4 years old. Then I asked what kind of a person this child would be? He seemed like a strong built warrior type. I didn't feel comfortable about the warrior thing, why would he need to be a warrior to spread his religion in the South India? So I asked, is that a good thing that he will be born altering the God's Will? Would the child have a good life? I heard the words 'ahankare marna' meaning will die because of ego.
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Warrior is a person who acts even in the face of fear, nothing to do with a war of weapons. Funny how I had to read this book which mentioned fear and warriors tonight. I love the universe, it always answers the questions, except sometimes I don't understand. Fear dissolves with conscious action and focuses on now. Read page 77 onwards and the next chapter is on anger. The book is Mystic secrets revealed by Edwin Harkness Spina. Two healthy responses to anger which is caused by unmet expectations is to act or accept reality. I can't believe the next chapter 'take back your power' is answering my question about my self doubt on weather it's right to heal and attempt to alter the course of life. I do listen to my inner master and that's the only time I heal and create, as per the direction from the higher self. 

Soul Talk Meditation technique

See any geometrical shape within your body. Focus on some points of the shape with each breath. See the energy moving from one point to the other or within the pattern.

Once in the trance state,

Address your soul and say -

Today, remove all blocks within my body. 

REMOVE the blocks that are stopping me from using my full potential.

remove all blocks within my head

remove all blocks within my heart

So my heart and mind can communicate clearly.

Remove any blocks that are stopping me from seeing clearly. 

Remove any blocks that are making me discolour the true image.

Remove the blocks that are stopping me from seeing the TRUTH.

I want to see Clearly
I want to know the TRUTH. 

Please SHOW me the truth.

Unleash my potential.

O Divine,
if you agree
I want to do Soul talking and Soul healing.

Ek Onkar healing

I was wondering if Reiki means God's universal energy then Ek onkar means the same. If healing can be done  by calling Reiki then it should work as well with saying Ek Onkar.

When I had done my Reiki attunement, I had remembered Guru Nanak and added the Ek Onkar symbol myself. When I did Saihaj's attunement at his request and after taking advice from Christopher Penczak's book 'Magick of Reiki'; I asked for help as I had never done attunement before, I saw visions of chinese looking masters mostly men and one lady. Saihaj had requested to add Ek Onkar symbol as well. I remembered Guru Nanak and to my amazement I saw him with rainbow colours around him and then I added that symbol. I was amazed because althought I have seen him before a few times in my meditations and he has done amazing things for me but I know that he doesn't always come unless there is a great need.

So one day, I asked in half sleeping and half meditating state, if Ek Onkar healing would work and I heard '33 Beethal'. What is the significance of 33, I don't know besides that Guru Gobind Singh ji was 33 years old when he started Khalsa Panth and I consider this number magical. I have been looking for the significance of this number in universal energy terms and don't know the answer yet.

You can heal yourself - talk to your body

It's amazing how we believe in the medicine of the doctor that we don't know, yet we don't believe ourself - the self that has been with this body since birth. We believe in the medicine created by man and yet not in the healing light of the universe / God.

The problem lies in our belief system. Ask yourself these simple questions.

1. Do I spend time with myself, talking to myself about me?
If you think the answer is YES, think again. I didn't say talking about your financial life, love life or social relationships. That is not talking about you. Those aspects of your life are important but only until you are alive.

2. Do you speak the truth to yourself and others? Do you observe and catch yourself lying, cheating or hurting others? 
"Off-course, I speak the truth to myself, not sure about others. I don't lie, cheat or emotionally hurt anyone. I am a good person. There are bad people at my work, in relatives and friends and in society but we can all spot a bad person. We are genuine and good people. At least I am, I know." Think again! And again until you can hear a different answer. Think deeply, no one will know what you know. Just speak the truth to yourself.
  
3. Are you at peace with yourself? Is there an internal conflict going on between your existing life and how you would like your life to be? And a conflict about this world and how it should be?
No. I am not happy with .................
I hate ....................
Why don't ...........................

So you have a lot of complaints! Who do you think is listening to those complaints that live in your head day and night. Your own body perhaps! Oh, I didn't think my body worries about what my head thinks, does it? Think of the impact of every negative thought on your body. For how many years of your life, you have been having a conflict within yourself about various issues in your life and in others lives? And then the doctor tells you that you have a deadly disease and you dare to ask WHY ME?

4. Do you believe in the existence of God?
Yes and no. Actually I am not 100% sure. Sometimes, I think ..............


5. What does God look like? What is your relationship with God?
"I don't know. Even if God exists, I don't think I will be able to find him as I am not that spiritual. Not in this lifetime, at least. I am such a lowly person."

Now we are talking. It's not GOD that has a problem with you. It's you who doesn't believe in yourself. You don't think you are good enough to have a close relationship with God / Universe.

So you live in denial. You don't believe that anyone can talk to God, any day at anytime. These so called spiritual people simply are shunning reality and living in delusion. You are sane, logical and a reasonable person :) Thank goodness there are still some logical people to run this world and set it right.

Don't worry, I am not asking you to believe in God, as long as you believe in your own existence. Just be logical and know that like every action has an equal and opposite reaction; every thought leaves a mark on your body. If you can understand this, it would be much easier to understand why most people are diagnosed with deadly dis-eases after 40. It's the residue of the thoughts and feelings that have been influencing the body.

So how can I heal myself? You must have heard - Prevention is better than cure. Talk to yourself. Observe yourself everyday. Do your own health check everyday by asking yourself - am I at peace with myself? Is there any internal conflict bothering my mind and body? How can I resolve that conflict. If its a long term conflict that can't be resolved in one day, then just think of it as a heavy baggage. Put it down, just for a few moments and give yourself a break from it.

Visualize having a shower in either colourless / white / golden or green light. Visualize this light touching every cell of your body and rejuvenating it. Your body feels much lighter and you feel happier. When you are at ease with your body and dis-ease can't come near you. So be kind to yourself and have happy thoughts most of the day. Now you are aware of your mind and body. Now you observe yourself and do not let any thought in, that will cause dis-ease in your body. The uni-verse is smiling at you, as you are one with yourself.

Reiki, Spirituality and Sikhism - Are they compatible?

I have been thinking about this for nearly two years and should confess that I am not 100% sure what Guru Nanak would say but I have my own logic that convinced me that they can be compatible. Is it a crime for an Amritdhari Gursikh to receive Reiki treatment or attunement? What one says depends on what one believes in and what they know about Reiki and its philosophy. I tried to tackle it from an objective perspective. I will start the story from the beginning -

In 2002,  I had been suffering from a severe shoulder pain for a year and had tried every treatment including physiotherapy, message, kinesiology and acupuncture; nothing had worked completely. One day when I went to an elderly friends house for a social visit, he said that he can see two holes in my body and that usually happens after a childbirth. I didn't know anything about Aura reading or Reiki then. I was surprised at his remark. He further said that he can fix the holes. At this I mentioned to him that I actually have a very bad right shoulder and the pain keeps coming back. He asked my permission to heal me. he didn't mention Reiki or anything. I simply gave my permission. I thought he was going to message my should but he didn't touch me at all. All I knew was that he was standing behind me. I had closed my eyes. I later asked my husband what did he do? He mentioned that this person simply placed his hands near my shoulders. The pain went away for a month. Coming downstairs from his house, I noticed a poster which prompted a conversation in which he told me that he does meditation everyday for an hour in the morning. A month later I called him in distress due to severe pain, he did the same hand treatment again and this time the shoulder pain never came back. I now know that what he did was Reiki treatment. I also know that since this Christian person changed his religion to Jehovahs Witness, he gave up Reiki as it is against his new religions belief system.

In late 2008, a work colleague told me that he has joined a meditation group and now he does meditation everyday for an hour. I became jealous and felt guilty that I, the Amridhari Gursikh, never do meditation and this person, Mr Nobody - according to AKJ standard Sikhi, was meditating everyday. In 2009, my new year resolution was to do meditation everyday, open my third eye and raise my Kundalini to 7th Chakra and see God and whatever else about Him Guru Nanak saw. I have since found out that 7th chakra is not the goal of Kundalini, it is the 4th chakra, the heart centre. Guru Nanak, the prophet of the 4th chakra, according to Sahej Yoga people, also seem to see God through the 4th chakra, the chakra of Love and Compassion for all. I was serious about my goal as 2012 was only four years away and I had to achieve the highest state before the end of the world. I must say I did very well that year and was very happy with the Kirpa of my Gurus. Read my blogs from that time to know about my precious experiences.

In Dec 2009, I went to India. My eldest sister told me that she had received Reiki attunement and was getting good results with healing but she gave up thinking that it was against Sikhism and she was not willing to change her Guru. Knowing how Reiki healing had changed my life ..

I asked Baba Makhan Singh of his opinion. He said that its Ok to practice Reiki but to be aware that when you heal someone this way, you are using your personal energy, although the Reiki theory says that its only God's energy that is being used. He said that since we use our intent to heal the person and to clear their aura (he knew about auras!), our personal energy does get used.

I am scared to see some Reiki healer being sick with life-threatening diseases. I wonder if they are sick as they used up too much of their personal energy and left themselves vulnerable to sickness. In pranic energy healing, they talk about receiving a little more than you are giving, so you don't deplete your energy but Reiki says that the healer doesn't control the flow of energy. It says that the Reiki knows how much is needed and the patient can't receive too much, unlike pranic energy healing where too much can cause energy congestion. Since reiki says its not personal energy being used at all, they do not talk about the harm to the healer for giving too much.

Besides this, in the Reiki Attunement session, the master asks you to imagine a Golden Yellow light around yourself. Yellow is the light of Solar Plexus, which is the chakra of personal energy.

More importantly, when Guru Nanak gave me darshan and before or after my 9 petal lotus opened, my whole body was healed by a emerald green colour particles coming out of a gemstone in the heart centre, hanging on a string that came down from the 7th chakra. Then the electric green colour light came out of my temples up to the palms of my hands in a semi-circle shape. This was not given to me by any humanbeing, therefore I trust this to be more God's energy and something that I was given without asking, so I must have God's permission to use it. Although, I tried to not accept it, as I was scared that I might not have the ability to use it wisely; I know believe that the creator would be a better judge of what I am capable and worthy of than myself. I still haven't used either of these to heal others. I am sure, when its the right time, I will be asked to serve. There is no hurry.

Eye-heart awareness

Samuel Sagan suggests in his book "Awakening the third eye" to develop eye heart awareness after two years of practice developing the third eye awareness, p.147. Guru Nanak Dev ji only ever talks of the feeling of love in the heart. Since I hadn't read this page of the book, I didn't know, I shouldn't do it yet. When I started seeing the colour purple in the eye first time, I enhanced the awareness in the heart to improve the vision of colour purple. It responds in proportion to the feeling of yearning. For this reason, I recommend to do meditation while the three day reading of scriptures, Akhand Path, is happening in the Gurdwara. Lines of Guru Bani that are being read helps you focus on the heart and feeling of yearning, as most of the shabads have yearning as the central idea. As soon as the mind wanders it is brought back to focus by gurbani.

Some time ago, I use to wonder if reading gurbani was a waste of time as it is asking the reader to meditate 24 hours a day and yet people just read it over and over again and don't do the very act of meditation and defeating the purpose of the writing. Now I read the Guru Granth Sahib Ji's bani when I lack the drive to meditate or have the desire but simply can't do it. I realise that the purpose of the shabads are to encourage the reader to meditate, develop the yearning to do so by praying to Waherguru to give you Nam, developing the feeling of love for God and guiding the reader as to what to do and what to avoid in life. Only a very few shabads describe, or give hints of what happened during or as a result of a meditation session. I am trying to find every such shabad. So I was particularly focusing on Shabads of Guru Nanak dev ji, Guru Arjan Den ji and Kabir ji. I didn't realise before that there are other Guru's that have also given a hint of that in their shabads.

Gurbani is written mostly in a simple language but its only after doing meditation that you seem to realise a different meaning of the words said in it. For example, Gurbani has several shabads that talk about Waheguru as Rang rangla, colourful. We always take this as philosopical concept that this world, his creation is colourful. I never knew this refers to the experience of the meditator who has seen several colours during meditation and felt that feeling of peace and joy never found anywhere else with any other object in the world. The feeling of yearning comes automatically after you fall in love with these beautiful colours that give you joy and you want more and more. Thus comes the need to see it again and again. Hence, the shabads like 'Fir Kad miliye mere pyare', when can I see you again. But colours are only a very first hint that meditation is not just time-out from this world for a few minutes. Its a journey with very real results. As you go deeper and deeper, you will see your Guru's, or other figures unknown to you who will show you the path ahead. Then you will see figures shown in the Sacred Geometry. Google the words "Sacred Geometry" and you will find out all about it. These figures are very real and manifest themselves to you. Since I didn't know anything about it, I simply enjoyed the session. The big mistake I made was to refuse the power of healing others that it was giving to me. A green light came from the temples, the area near the eyes on the edges of the forhead, and made an arch from outside my body and upto my hands that were laying on my knees, palms facing upwards. I enjoyed it and then said that I don't want to become a healer. I just want to see and know God Waheguru. I now realise that God never offers more than what you can handle. It was my fear that stopped me. I have a theory on why Baal Guru Har Krishan Sahib ji died of disease when he was the one who relieved so many from their diseases. If you read a book on Pranic energy by Choa Koh Sui, its mentioned in there that always give out less pranic energy than what you receive and also to do some clensing thing to get rid of the residue of the energy of sickness. Reiki must be a much safer way of healing as the healer doesn't have to worry about these issues as the healer doesn't control the amount of the energy going into the patients body or the area in which the energy is going.

I know realise that I had very big urge to heal my son of his Down Syndrome and more importantly his diabetes. Although, I never realised that my body and feelings were projecting that. Therefore, as a response I was being given the healing power that I thought I needed so much. When I refused it, I didn't remember I had a son who needed healing. I simply felt that I don't have sufficient knowledge or understanding to even contemplate interfering with Gods business.