How can bad intent work faster than good intent!

I was telling a spiritual friend about my experience when my father who had passed away, some years ago appeared in my meditation. I heard his voice saying why aren't you helping him? I knew he was talking about my sibling that was very very sick and couldn't get better and yet the doctors couldn't pin point what was wrong with him. All medical results were fine and yet he was so sick, he expressed fear that he was going to die if a solution wasn't found soon. His marital life wasn't so happy at the time.
My immediate reply to my fathers request was that it's his life and his problems and therefore he needs to fix it, I shouldn't interfere. I believed that people choose their life and it's circumstances including the dramas and all based on their need for attention etc and there are lessons in all life situations for the person to learn. Some lessons are hard or painful to learn but very important. People shouldn't be healed without having them learn their lesson as that would be depriving them of their opportunity.
While this sounds good in theory, my father didn't like my indifferent attitude to his problems and instructed me to help him. The next thing I saw that he created a spiral of purple energy around me anticlockwise. Then he placed a garland of white flowers on me. I had never healed anyone before this time but somehow intuitively I was ready to heal him. I sent the healing light to him and saw a brick wall. This was the actual brick wall outside his house. Then I noticed a very nasty biggest suitcase size black energy placed outside his bedroom wall. Without thinking I acted fast and tried to blast that black energy with white light that I was sending. I noticed that black energy was too strong. I prayed that I be given all energy that my father collected during his lifetime doing meditation to heal his son. I received so much powerful white light that I used with full force for a while to get rid of that black energy that didn't go away easy. Then I shown the light all around his house all the way to the outskirts of his front and backyard.
I was surprised that I had access to so much white light and when I was in astonishment at what I had just fought with that white light, I heard that I have access to that much energy everyday, if I wish to use it and that the white light and the access to it is never ending. I was truly surprised. Then I rung him and hour later to ask him to accept the healing energy I have sent him as I was worried that the brick wall could mean that he is not accepting the energy as I wasn't able to go inside his house while sending the energy. I was surprised when I told him what I did as instructed by dad, he said casually, "oh, so that's what that light was. I was laying in bed doing meditation and I saw the white light just above me. I didn't know what that was." I didn't think that he would actually see the light. I was only expecting him to feel better but not see anything.
In the next few days, I sought more answers in relation to the black energy that I had seen. I understood that it was someone's bad intent that was making him sick and that's why the doctors and their X-ray machines couldn't pick that energy problem.
I recently had a friend's husband die if some mystery disease and as I was talking about my experience to this spiritual friend, I suddenly stopped as I understood that this friends husband also died of this bad intent energy and that's why doctors couldn't pin point why he was loosing wait for no apparent reason. For ove a year, the doctors tried all tests and failed to find a reason for his sickness.
So beware of people who have bad intent as it does make you unwell. It depends on the health of your third chakra how much their intent can hurt you. Keep your Willpower chakra strong. When you do selfless service, you receive blessings from others and they help to keep you strong and healthy with their good intentions. So keep a group of well intended friends to surround you with their protective energy. Don't isolate yourself from others unless you are actually seeking God energy, in which case you will be protected by the God energy.
On the contrary know that sending bad intentions also takes away a lot of energy from you and will harm you three folds but in time. You won't see the immediate effect but slowly are surely universe will get even because balance and justice is its true nature.

Going nowhere Spiritually

Being fortunate enough to have some spiritual experiences changed my view of the world. For a while I wanted answers to why, how and when about the spiritual world. Then I craved the  company of people who has such experiences as myself.

Soon, I gave up telling others to practice meditation as a matter of urgency, so they could experience the real life. I had realised that people aren't interested in finding out about the source of all energy that is running this universe. I realised all people want is someone else to pursue the spiritual and just pass on the benefits to them, heal them and bless them with more money, so they have more material success. Experiencing peace and joy wasn't their goal.

So here I am, trying to balance living between the materialistic and the spiritual. When I practice the spiritual regularly and start having the magnificent experiences, I want to give up the materialistic side. When I do so and I have all the time in the world for the spiritual, then may be due to reduced physical activity I don't focus any better or practice meditation anymore than I would otherwise. So I have realised that a balance of the two is best, just as Guru Nanak recommended.

Now I know that a Guru, spiritual master, and knowing how to seek protection before going into deep meditation is not optional but an essential part of meditation or you could land into deep trouble as the spiritual world is not all goodie goodie world. Then sometimes I think that ignorance is bliss. May be those who never try to enter the spiritual realms and just focus on material success are doing fine.

I do know the reality that all those so called successful people aren't happy inside and I am on the right path of seeking truth. I am more patient now and am happy to wait for the unfolding to happen in its own time and not rush enlightenment as it can be dangerous when one is not ready for it all. I am still wondering when would I become a a truly better person as a result and my nature will change permanently to a more patient, understanding, selfless and beautiful person?

It is not sufficient to set a goal and work towards it. The energy of people connected to you through that aspect of you life also influences your success and failure. So never underestimate the power of other people's thought energy. That's probably why having someone else to do the prayer for you works better as this gives you added energy that you require to succeed and for the universe to conspire your success. Yes, I meant conspire because sometimes you get recognition for little things and sometimes no recognition of even bigger contributions. It's not always what you do that matters but also how others perceive you.
It is unbelievable that I had two opportunities to grab a job I wanted but the events that unfolded the night before the interview jarred my opportunity twice. When the job in question came as an internal recruitment opportunity, I emailed the Humanr Resources / Organisational Development unit and withdrew from the interview because a certain person that thought that the job belongs to them was very apprehensive about me applying for the job and I couldn't accept that this person will die believing that I took her job when I already had a permanent job. Her job had been redesigned along with another supervisory position to create one new position to do both jobs. This led her to believe that she should get the new job only if I didn't apply for it as she would be the only applicant. When I applied, she got very worried that I was a stronger leader than her. She talked to everyone else in the workplace and projected me as a villain because I had applied for her job. This became unbearable for me as I knew that she didn't have the personal traits to manage the new job and that she hadn't demonstrated herself as an efficient leader in the past 10 years. So I pulled out at 3pm, two hours before that painful workday finished when she constantly told people "but...has applied for my job". I just wanted her to know that I am not the cause of her going to be unsuccessful and when I pulled out and yet she being the only applicant didn't get it; it made my point clear.

I also knew that whatever energy you give out, you receive it ten folds. Since I was deprived of my opportunity to sit for the interview because of her constant rant, I unconsciously projected the energy that stopped her from getting the job but now the question was that I have projected the wrong energy, besides her own inabilities. So what will universe give me back!

The night before the inteview for the same job as an external vacancy, I had a call from a homeless girl who requested refuge for a couple of nights from us. I have known this girl from days when she use to have a partner and a house to the days when she had been couch sleeping or sleeping in her car from the past five years. She hadn't asked for help all these years "why tonight?" I thought. There must be a reason and I must help her. So I offered her to stay with me. She said she felt that she was being watched by a group of men and she didn't feel safe. Being a feminist and a humanitarian, I had to help her regardless of the fact that out of all nights, tonight I wanted no distractions. It was 7 pm, I had planned to wash my clothes for the interview and then after dinner, be in bed by 8pm; so I am fresh for the interview at 9 am.
Since, I now accepted her to be my visitor, I had to change my plan and instead get in the kitchen and prepare dinner first and then clear space for her to sleep. While I was doing that she started talking and I felt connected to her thoughts and gave her all the attention she needed to feel at home. Now it was 11.30pm and I hadn't washed by interview clothes. So I quickly put the washing machine on and went to sleep. I got up at 6.30am and was about to go to start the drier for the clothes I washed the night before but she woke up exactly then and came to sit next to me. I was being polite and started a conversation which led to her giving me a very gentle rubbing of hands to giving me a kinesiology type massage on my right side of the body for an hour. Now it was 7.30am and I pulled myself up and said that I really need to get ready for the interview. Now I rushed to put the drier on, have a shower  and have breakfast.

As I was leaving home at 8.35am to be there for the interview at 9am, I would barely arrive there in time if had left straightaway; she says to make sure I drink plenty of water as I will feel very thirsty all day. I had no time to grab a glass of water. I arrived at the I view and they offered water, so I excused myself and took the offer and drank a huge amount of  it before the interview. Little did they know that it wasn't my nervousness but need due to the massage that I will drink another lot in the middle of answering a question latter on. For almost every question they asked, I had to request them to repeat the question. I couldn't comprehend the questions. It was like my nerves were not sharp, like they usually are. I struggled to quickly provide a digested answer. I was a sombe unlike my very impressive interview for another internal position I had given which impressed the judges very much. And it reflected my passion and confidence. This interview portrait me as someone having difficulty with everything. I completely misjudged the last question and by the time I comprehended it, they had already said the last but, " Is there anything you would like to ask us". I bit my toung and knew I had no time to give the right answer even though I now know what the correct answer should have been for the last question. I somehow couldn't say thatI just want to answer the last question again. I knew they had gone overtime and didn't want me t take anymore of their time. I walked out of the interview flabbergasted at my own slow  responses.
I came home and the homeless girl says your nerves will be a bit slow for the first 24 hours after the message. "What the ..." I said to myself. So she knew what the effect of the massage would be and she knew how important my interview is to me and yet she went ahead and massaged me knowing the effect on nerve response! Why did the universe play such a game with me? Why did she have to come the night before the interview and do everything that would ruin the one thing I have been planning for over a month? It's not as if I didn't know the answers to impress the judges, I just couldn't get them out at the right time. I am one person who has absolutely no difficulty with speaking the right answers generally. I knew them at the interview as well but why couldn't I get them out?

Now I remember that even when this position was advertised internally, I applied at the last minute after I had been preoccupied with a tragic death of a community member that affected me and I took lave from work. It feels like the universe conspired for me to not apply everytime.

It is not sufficient to set a goal and work towards it. The energy of people connected to you through that aspect of you life also influences your success and failure. So never underestimate the power of other people's thought energy. That's probably why having someone else to do the prayer for you works better as this gives you added energy that you require to succeed and for the universe to conspire your success. Yes, I meant conspire because sometimes you get recognition for little things and sometimes no recognition of even bigger contributions. It's not always what you do that matters but also how others perceive you.