Last night I went to listen to Surinder Singh Nanaksar Delhi wala's kirtan at the Thath (I am not a supporter of any place where Gursikhs are praised as Guru/Sant; a great Raagi just happens to reside there for a short period and I can't miss such an opportunity) from 6 pm to 7.15 pm as I have been from the last month. He did such fantastic kirtan that I kept meditating all through the kirtan. That was not enough. I wanted to meditate more. So I came home and started meditation on my bed. When got tried, I lied down and kept meditating. I wasn't asleep when I saw the death skull. Later I saw two Sikhs, one of whom was discussing something with the third that I didn't see. I am not sure how many more Sikhs were there. They weren't handsome or glamorous, skin colour was a bit on the dark side. I heard the unseen one ask the one that I could see to give me something. To this he replied that I still had 40 days, indicating that there is plenty of time for me to receive. I don't understand this.
I had thought a few days ago about meditating continuously for 40 nights and wondered how it was possible with my job and little kids. Was this conversation simply a reflection of that thought or it was real people of Yamraj, the God/ Incharge of Death suggesting that I still have 40 days before I die? I am not scared at all but puzzled. What gift was it that they had to give me within 40 days?
The other problem I have is that when I meditate and there is someone else in the room looking at me curiously, while I have my eyes closed and in deep meditation; I become that person. It feels as if I am that person not me. Then I have the deep desire what that person has. It happened when a pregnant acquaintance saw me at her Akhand Path. A few days ago when I was listening to the live kirtan, I saw the raagi sitting in my lower abdomen with his harmonium singing. Raagi was singing beautifully at the time, probably using all his energy from the gut.
I also had another silly thought. I visualised myself being in bliss on the death-bed and the raagi singing divine kirtan for me to listen. I wish Surinder SIngh ji could teach such nice kirtan to my son, so when I am near death, I have no difficulty finding a divine singer to fulfil my desire of listening to great kirtan continuously for hours on for days. According to one meditation sessions revelation, I am suppose to live till 84 years of age. Am I altering my destiny and shortening my lifespan by visualising my end time?
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23rd June, 2010
Betty Eddie wrote in her book 'Embraced by the light' that everything is first created spiritually before it is manifested physically. I am so shocked to realise that the three men I mentioned above, were Baba Thakur Singh ji, his bodyguard and the guy who records his live katha.
The bodyguard guy suggested to Thakur Singh to reveal the good news to me. Thakur Singh ji said something to the effect that there is some time before that happens. The bodyguard then told me about the Samagam at Minto gurdwara from 1 Aug to 7 Aug from 4 am -8 pm each day. That's what was to happen in 40 days. I suppose I better take time off work to attend this Samagam now.
I recognised the guy that records his katha as the same person that was standing in the background with his long beard. He didn't say anything but was there. The same thing happened yesterday, 22nd June at 12 noon approx, when I went to have a chat with him, this guy was quietly sitting on the carpet uninvolved. Does this indicate that the spiritual event happens, I am so shocked, 40 hours earlier than the physical event. I was meditating at 8 - 8.30 pm on the 20th June. I was only trying to solve the mystery of 40 days, I didn't even know anything about 40 hours. It has taken me another 24 hours after the physical event to work this out. Its nearly 12 noon now.
Now my brain in over working but I have to mention that the gestation period of a baby is also approx 40 weeks. So anything new that is created physically is closely attached to number 40.
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25th June, 2010
By the way I just remembered that Giani Thakur Singh ji's main message for everyone was to do 125 lakh Moolmantras in 40 days to get any worldly desire fulfilled or Waheguru if you want spiritual stuff. He did say that you may have to do these 40 day sittings several times, if you are demanding something really big based on the amount of bad Karma that needs to be negated before you receive the gift. I don't intent to ask for any worldly possesions or relations. I only want to have a permanent connection with the Nirankar and Guru Nanak, no matter where I am and what I am involved in, in terms of the eternal time.
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25th June, 2010
A beloved close relative died at 7 am this day in NZ. This is why I felt I was on the death bed and saw the death skull.
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13th July, 2010
Surinder Singh ji told me that their Jatha is leaving my town on 28th July, 2010. This means I will not be able to enjoy live Asa Di war kirtan every morning like I have been for some time now. This was my time to meditate while listening to kirtan. The kirtan helped me get focused quickly. I will be disadvantaged by the departure of this Jatha. Even the Jatha didn't know on 20th June that, in 40 days, they will be called to Melbourne, where they so wanted to go.
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I asked Surinder Singh if he knew why I had 40 days and if he was planning to leave this town and he replied that he was planning to go in August, that is just 40 days away counting from 20th June when I experienced this incident. He has now changed his mind and will not leave us.
Today the bodyguard of Baba Thakur Singh ji asked Babaji to give me the good news and then told me that from 1 August, they are organising a divan from 4am - 8pm each day, for a week, in Minto, Sydney. They asked me to attend that samagam. I am sure this is the gift I was to receive in 40 days.
On 25th June, my favorite distant Neice Kamaldesh died in New Zealand. The bit about the death skull and death-bed during my meditation was an indication of her approaching death, not my own. She was one of the very few people in my in-laws family, whose welfare I was always worried about, due to her personal circumstances and critical health issue.
Its interesting to find out that Kamaldesh saw someone standing behind her 40 hours defore her death. She also commented that five Sikhs were there to take her away. Its freaky!
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