Moksha, nirvana is liberation from what?

In my last blog I raised a few questions about society, it's  beliefs about success and our entire life engulfed in living up to society's standard of perceived success. All our actions are geared towards acquiring more wealth.
This morning I came with the insight that may be moksha is this awareness that they are all false goals and the real goal is self- satisfaction and a state of contentment. Contentment can't come if you stay tuned to what society wants of you in terms of their version of progress and success. Contentment can only come with the awareness of one God, a source of universal energy and wisdom that lives within us all. The realisation that we all have same needs and if we just give up greed for more, and be happy with sharing whatever we have for we all have same needs; contentment will come because there is no competition to snatch from one to be gained by the other. This sacrifice of the techniques suggested by the clever mind to get more than others in favour of the heart's desire for equal share for everyone, is moksha and nirvana. The literal translation of Moksha and Nirvana is Liberation. The oneness with God gives us liberation.
The question is liberation from what; societies false ways, beliefs and expectations. Is it that simple? Is finding God the simple realisation to follow your heart and not the society? Is finding God the simple realisation to make your own path and do something for the humanity instead of working for self greed? Wouldn't life become so simple, if we didn't have that care for showing off to society that we are successful as per their definition?
If so, then what is this war of religion? Does religion even matter, if it's about the realisation that contentment is the key and taking the actions based on the realisation of God within us all. If so, then the only gauge for religious success is how humane actions we take in life. It can't be about how many people we converted into our own religion and weather we stood up to fight for our religion. Trying to change people's belief system by force, by war; is that even possible?
Guru Nanak said contemplation on God is the key. What is God to you? How do you satisfy God within you? Do you ever talk to the God within you? Does the God within you approve of your lifestyle and actions? Do you care about his approval? Or societies standards and approvals are more important to you? God is self that has realised the self in the other. Realisation of God builds compassion in the heart. The simple thought - does the other need it more desperately than me and letting go of it without regret, is Godly. It's not the easiest thing to do when the mind constantly fights the heart and brings the societal standards to the forefront.
 It all comes back to what is success in your mind? What does a successful person look like to you? Is it the one in the suit and tie or the one that is above the worries of what I look like and how others perceive me? Is the successful person the one who works to satisfy his own greed or the one that works to make this earth a better place to live for all? What is success to you? Please leave a comment.

Slaves of a system ?

Are we wasting our lives finding jobs to pay our debt, buying properties and getting more deeply into debt? Are we truly victims of a capitalist system? Are we kept so busy buying things small and big and working hard to pay for them, that we are left with no time for contemplation on our actions? Is keeping us busy a deliberate attempt to keep us dumb? Why do fall for it? Is it because we all like to be seen as successful by the society and the society measures success with material wealth? Why do we have to satisfy the society and its standards?

Would the world fall apart if I left my job of last 20 years? Would it be too bad if I refuse to compete with others in the pursuit of finding a better paying job? Why don't we try a different strategy and instead of increasing funds, try to simplify our way of living. Why does the look of disgust on people's face bother me when I don't wear the latest fashion traditional suit to the temple, just because I am in a different state of mind and do not want to wear shiny, attractive or expensive clothes. Has the society been brainwashed so much that we simply can't think past money and fashion? Why are we acquiring more and more wealth and properties year after year? Why can't we start using that money to feed others and be happy and contented with each other? Why are we ignoring the world poverty? 

Wouldn't the world come to a stand still if we suddenly changed our shopping habits? The reduce the hours we work and spend some of that time meditating and singing?

It disgusts me to see that people are using yoga, meditation and singing to make money. Then again every other profession is doing the same. Why the exchange value for everything is money and measure of success is money? What can we replace money with?

Money has only separated brothers from each other. Money has made us loose our hearts and work with our minds. We are getting better at communicating, marketing and understanding human psychology but what are we using those skills for? To sell more material goods? Why not to promote understanding of the value of contentment, meditation and singing?

Money has brought war. We have not developed at all. We are as savage as we were before. We have just developed better weapons to kill ourselves and our environment. What for? How can we call it development when we are heading towards a world where we are buying water and soon be buying clean air. Wasn't it that we were advanced when we had everything for everyone for free? Why aren't we making any effort to free ourselves from our self created misery?

The only things that have ever satisfied me completely are silence, inner journey through meditation or when I am completely lost in the notes of music. When I loose myself that's when I find myself completely. The joy of silence and nothingness and what happens afterwards can't be compared to any amount of wealth and possessions. Just like the experiences of  traveling to places of natural beauty can't be measured in monetary value, the value of non material experiences is priceless.

God is the vibration of love - a solution to depression

What is God? God is the vibration of love within every living thing. God can't be found through religion but only by sharing, caring and unconditional loving service towards another. To feel loved, you need to give love.

The Panjabi community of Woolgoolga is a living example of how happiness can't be found through wealth. Despite abundance of money and the ability to buy anything they wish, these people are complaining that they don't feel loved by the family, just being used to make money. Why? Is it because we work so hard all day that we have no energy left to say 'I love you' to each other? Is it because we don't trust anyone to whom we can share our deeper feelings and expose our vulnerability ?

How can we address this problem of not feeling loved? The apparent problem of alcoholism is closely related to this feeling of not being loved and depression.

If you ever felt like there is a hole inside you. Nothing makes you truly happy, it's because of  the black dog that lives inside you. Read about the black dog, so when someone says I am going to die, don't just advice them to get over it, take them to a psychologist or simply make time immediately to listen to them. Help them open up their bundle of messed up feelings.

People turn to alcohol so they can't hear the black dog that gives that feeling of emptiness in life but Guru Gobind Singh identified alcohol as something that Fuels that issue even further and may lead to domestic violence. Therefore, Guru Gobind Singh's logic of no alcohol and drugs is stipulated.

Focus on deep breathing. Watch this breath go inside the tummy and touch your black hole where you feel that emptiness, hold the breath there and then release it. Next time feel God's love coming inside with the incoming breath and the life demeaning emptiness leaving your body.
Now you are loved and touched by God. To keep this feeling of love, you must go into the community and share the unconditional love with someone by doing something to make someone happy. Something as simple as greeting someone and smiling can be a gesture of unconditional love. Stay in touch with someone that you trust you can talk to without judgement and be that person for someone else. Do little acts of random kindness without commitment to take ownership of their welfare.

Join a group or pursue a hobby. Something as simple and buy a coffee and enjoy chatting or go for long walk on the beach. When was the last time you noticed the stars in the night sky, a full moon, the floating clouds and their changing shapes, the chirping birds, and the waves hitting the shore one after the other. The time wasting activities like read a novel or a poem, write in a diary are also highly useful in keeping us sane. Gaze into nothingness and take long but soft breaths.

Connect to your navel, your centre of power, breath into it again. This is the meditation, naam simran that Sikh religion talks about in the 1430 pages of Guru Granth Sahib, the holy scripture. This is exactly the same stuff Jesus tried to teach the masses when he said, 'God is love and God is light'. Hinduism and Buddhism also believe in the same meditation. We started stipulating other conditions in the name of religion long after the original messengers passed away. All religions started with this basic message that there is an invisible power within us that needs awakening. When this invisible power unites with the same power that fuels the rest of the visible world, we call it God.

If you simply take away the word religion and just focus on one practical thing they all ask of you, it is meditation which is just a word to say focus on your breathing and you will feel strong and loved. Connect to the vibration of love that is the source of strength that created this universe and holds it together. Just like the internets wifi connection, this waves of love are unseen but powerful source of connection that recharges our battery of life. Let's recharge ourselves and others. Follow the Sikhi of Guru Nanak, the way of Jesus without labelling it. Follow the message not the messenger. In doing so you will make yourself happy and the messenger proud that he succeeded in delivering his message.

World divided in two halves - opposing ideologies but none in favour of human liberty

Human Liberty is at high risk everywhere in the world at the moment because of the religious intotelerance. Forcing people to change their religion or appearance to fit in with the dominant culture in order to gain employment in a society didn't start in India but it will make India an unstable place to live if the terrorist activity in the name of hindutva is not controlled.

The French tried to ban the burka in 2010, and claimed that the goal of the French authorise is to preserve the ideology of 'living together'. The burka, Nisan, hoodies, head covers like scarf and turban are to be removed for security reasons and can't be worn in public places.The media picked up on The fact that Muslim women wearing burka are targeted but failed to recognise that Sikh men wear a turban at all times and they would be affected as well.
If you ask a person from European background, they say that they fear going in parts of towns where black people live in bettors because if they walk those streets, they might get robbed.

Last Friday night, I went to an official Christmas party held in a beautiful beachside town of Sawtell near Coffs Harbour. I happen to sit next to a representative of the city who happens to be a school teacher as well. I know him from the past eight years and was happy to be sitting next to an intellectual person. Something sparked the discussion about the religion and he claimed that part of Europe are unsafe of these people because of the ghettos because the people living in the ghettos have been brainwashed by their religion. My claim is that it's not their religion making them steal from the rich, it's the gap between the haves and the have not's. The debater claimed that the people living in ghetto are responsible for their own poverty because when they go to other suburbs asking for a job, they are asked to remove their beard, if they want the job. Its's their choice to have a job or cut their beard. They chose religion instead of a job. My question was, would cutting the beard make them more intelligent or efficient in their job? If I cut my long platt, would I become a better Librarian ? If not, why should you ask such a thing? It's a symbol of my identity, my culture and then my religion. When you are giving someone that choice, you not giving them any choice; you are giving ultimatum that unless you abide by my rules, You shall suffer in poverty. Therefore, we are imposing our believes on others. The belief, in this case is that a western look is better, more civilised and less threatening. Did I just write that?

Since when are beards and covering their whole body, not part of western culture! Only 150 years ago all Christians believed in cover themselves up. Covering head when going to the church has been the only way less than 50 years ago. We have uncovered ourselves a lot more and changed the culture very rapidly in a very short period of history. Who is to say this is the best practice. How do we know that 100 years from now we will say that humanity suffered highest rates of skin cancer due to this reason and may start believing that covering oneselve and keeping long hair is better ( don't we already say slip, slop, slap)?

Whenever people are forced to chose a look other than the one they prefer otherwise face economic sanctions, people have no choice but to revolt and pick up a gun. Read the history of Sikhism and you will find out how a religion that started as religion to unite all religions was also forced to adopt the policy of wearing a Kirpan, a dagger, because of the need to fight for their belief that everyone has a right to chose their religion, and yet a responsibility to not threaten anyone that is not encroaching on your human rights but protecting those who can't protect themselves, the downtroden.

The fastest way to change someone is through through leading by example and with love. The west has influenced the east by showing the path of Liberty. Sikhs feel safer Living in western countries that they do in the east. Sikhs also feel safer being ruled by the white man than by a black man because we associate Liberty with them.

When I first arrived  in Australia, I went for a walk on the beach by myself and a white lady walking in the opposite direction gave a beautiful smile and said, "Good evening". I gave a fake smile and was puzzled. She didn't know me personally, why did she say that to me? We don't greet strangers like this in India, asking for directions when you are lost is another matter but greeting someone you don't know with a genuine smile? Besides, she was a British, the same kind that committed atrocities on my kind for 200 years and took away all our gold and jewels and left us a poor country. They did the same with Africans. All that I read in my history books was buried deep inside that stopped me from smiling back at her. I went to my new and only husband and asked I a complaining tone. Born and bread in Australia, my husband didn't know any other way and said, "If one human being whom' talk to another human being then who else should they talk to?" These words hit me like a brick. What was I thinking? I had been brainwashed by history? No, history stands as it is but it should not come in my way of seeing a human being as a human being first and everything else later. My husband became my living spiritual master that day. I always forgive all his follies for he taught me the most invaluable lesson that day.

Those who have everything are not making any efforts to help those who don't have a way to provide for their family's basic needs. Instead, we are changing government policies to give subsidies to the rich because it's the rich who fund campaigns for both parties that hold power in government.

Religion itself is no threat to anyone. It's the religious fundamentalist ideologies in every religion that are a threat to everyone, especially to the people who belong to that very religion. It's religious fundamentalists who brainwash people and enforce their rules on everyone else, hence jeopardising their liberty to chose how to dress and how to act, think and behave.

 Sikhs should be on high alert - Gurdwara funds may get controlled by Indian government
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Shoes made with pearls

I have never understood how the universe runs several hours ahead of me. Yesterday morning just as I was trying to wake myself up close to 5.30 am to go to the Gurdwara to listen to the musical Asa Di Vaar', I saw a dream that I was getting off the bed and there were shoes made of white pearls right where I was about to put my feet, as if ready for me to slip my feet into them. They attracted me but I was puzzled. Wouldn't they be uncomfortable, I asked myself before trying to put my feet in them.

At 9 am as I arrived at the backdoor of my workplace; there was a fair European lady sitting on the steps with a used blanket near her. She was healthy, intelligent looking beautiful woman with a (fake) white pearl necklace. By the time I noticed all this, I was already at the door and as a habit  I had almost open the door to get in. I had already greeting her with 'Good morning' and a smile but I felt my heart melt a little. I couldn't go inside and let her be. I shut the door again, laughed and said candidly, " I don't want to go in" and started chatting with her to find out her situation and any way I could help her. I offered her help but she denied. I told her where I work and where she can find me should she change her mind later.

How did the universe know I was going to meet this girl in just under four hours time and will feel how uncomfortable situation she is in? It's always about the event that is going to happen roughly within that time frame, the magic number being 40. 

The worse part is that I get the visions but I never understand them properly until after the event. So what's the benefit of them! It just adds to my confusion. It's not even a significant event yet I talked about her plight even in the evening with some friends. Why was she so important that I had to dream about this meeting? Is the universe calling me to help homeless mentally ill women?

Serve humanity before religion

The success of money speaks for itself. Majority of people are after money in their lives, more passionately than they are after their religion. Money is treated seriously in every country weather it is a secular nation or a one religion nation. It's because money buys the necessities and luxuries of life.
Money won the hearts of people because it itself never discriminates. It goes to whoever chases it more competitively regardless of their religion. The sudden rise in share prices of companies that invest in firearms in late 2015, a day after the terrorist attack in France in 2015, was a clear proof that those who are pretending to support the agenda of the western nations to bomb Syria, Afganistan etc are infact simply in favour of war because war benefits their pockets. It is clear that the weapons made by western companies are ending up in the hands of the very people the west is bombing. How is it happening? It's because money talks. And the firearms don't discriminate either, they simply kill.

War can never bring peace. All attempts of genocide of a race or a religion in history have failed. When Indira Gandhi's son Rajiv Gandhi gave orders to bribe mobs and give them ammunition to kill all Sikhs in Delhi in November 1984; it didn't end Sikh religion. The current paid acts of decimation of Sikh scriptures in the State of Punjab is not going to end Sikhism either. Instead, the Sikhs have taken citizenship of countries all over the world.
When Mughal rulers in India tried to convert masses into Muslims, Sikhism, a new religion was born to protect the Hindus and to help them save their religion and dignity. Today Muslims are being persecuted and Sikhs are feeding the hungry and war torn Syrian refugees. The message is clear, "Serve the humanity before any religion".
People of all races and religions are trying to feed and cloth their families. Then they will move on to seek the luxuries of life and in doing so will deprive others of a decent living. worlds-most-sustainable-country How many centuries do we need to understand this simple stuff. Every time you chose to spend money on buying luxuries for yourself, someone out there is dying of hunger. We have focused our energies and resources in the wrong direction. The companies that invest in firearms are there to make money and people investing in them are all criminals and should be treated that way. I can bet my bottom dollar that you will find the queen of England would have heavily invested in that too. End royalty, stop spending your money on luxuries and start feeding the poor. We don't need any weapons, we need more tractors to plow the land and to grow organic food.
Why have we got millionaires in a nation like India? It's because we are hording the money. We are not sharing it. Remember when we invented money, it was for a fairer bargain and easier way to be able to buy another thing in exchange.
God created a currency of LOVE. The more you give the more you get. The more you share with people, the more satisfied you feel. Man created MONEY, so the more he hoards, the richer and greedier he gets.
The real conflict is between money and love. If you intend to see any change, you need to change what you invest in - money or love, humanity or religious politics? We have been choosing other things over love and humanity for centuries. When are we going to learn our lesson?
Ignoring the governments doesn't help either, that's simply evading responsibility towards humanity.

Religious intolerance ramps up religion based brainwashing

Newton's third Law of  Motion' "Every action has equal and opposite reaction"' is proving to be correct in relation to religion as well.  America waged a war on Islam when it said its a war on terror after Al-Qaeda was blamed for the 'Twin Tower' attack in Sep 2001. Muslims were attacked in USA and tortured in Guantanamo bay.
Muslims ramped up their religious activity when they realised that the whole world was against them and every Muslim was being seen as a terrorist. They had to find better way to gain majority and support. There is a rumour going around since 2004-2005 that Muslim boys are preached to marry girls of other religions, make children with them and Turn them into Muslims. I saw a living proof of this act that happened to a Sikh girl from England.

Al-Jazira made a documentary showing the Hindu fundamentalist group Bajrang Dal holding camps for Hindu girls aged 15-35, teaching them fighting skills and preaching that Hindu girls should only marry Hindu boys because of this conspiracy theory that Muslim boys are out there to have an affair with Hindu girls and make them change their faith.
Worried about their own religion Hindu extremist groups like RSS are more active than ever before to exterminate all other religious minorities from India and make it a Hindu Nation by burning bible and decimating Guru Granth Sahib, the Sikh scriptures. They are also engaged in the murders mentioned in the Saffron Terror, an article on Wikipedia. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saffron_terror
Horrified by the decimation of Guru Granth, Sikhs united in holding a black Diwali at every gurdwara around the world. Some might like to take benefit of this unification and try to persuade others to work towards freeing Punjab, a small state in India to make a Sikh nation named Khalistan. So all we have achieved so far is more division and killings in the name of religion. Religious hatred and fear of attack from others hasn't and will not stabilise the world because we are placing religion ahead of humanity. The question is what is it that you want your religion to give you or help you achieve?
If you get into discussion about the religion every religious person is adamant that theirs is the right path but I ask the right path to what? What do you want your religion to give you or help you achieve? Political goals, a name in history, financial freedom, peace, success, leadership, acceptance, belonging, or a place in heaven after you create hell on earth?
Here is someone who believes in the Torah trying to prove everyone else wrong without even trying to ask some questions before handing out verdict http://www.therefinersfire.org/cr.htm I read what he has to say about Sikhism. Tired of this disregard for the other religion and the obedience to the ruler without concern for the daily needs of a common householder, frustrated Nanak left his job.  Nanak wanted better living for all regardless of their religion. I have the same goal. So I am comfortable following Nanak's lead.
What is the one think for humanity that you want your religion to deliver?

What's the purpose of my life?

When I started the Spiritual and Paranormal book club, one young lady asked a lot of questions. She was curious to find out all that she didn't know. By the end of the session she said "I have read all these books that say that everyone is here for a purpose. I just want to know what's my purpose in this life? Why am I here?". Nobody had an answer.
After that I thought a lot. Does everyone have a different purpose in life? Is my purpose different from hers? If that was the case, we all would have different needs.

I see that the needs of all animals including humans are all the same and our behaviours are all the same. We all need to eat and we all love our offsprings. We all fight with our neighbours to get ahead of the pack. We all suffer from the same problems. If I earned little bit more, I would get to the next level. The race of the next level never finishes and we keep asking for more.
Until, we look back at someone lower than us and suddenly realised how high I have jumped. Suddenly, we feel releaved. Then, we think of a different goal. Instead of pushing ourselves up, we start thinking of pulling someone up a level. Although, this action doesn't help us go higher; it gives us a level of satisfaction each time we help someone.

The game has changed at this point. It's no longer about fulfilling your goals but helping others fulfil theirs. In chasing your own goals and competing; there is jealousy, suffering and despair but in helping others fulfil their dreams is empathy, satisfaction and joy.

The purpose of collection of information, keeping secrets and making money is to find peace and happiness. We realise through experience that when we reach our death bed, the only regret we have is that we didn't spend enough time with our loved one's exhibiting our love for them regardless of all disagreements and wrong doings.

We realise that world is not going to miss us because we didn't do anything to change the wider world, only took little risks and actions, enough to feed our families and ourselves while somewhere else they kept dying of hunger, war and famine.

The only regret remains with us, "I wish I was bold enough to stand up for all that I wanted to stand up for". Somewhere in those moments we take another pledge to take birth again and do it right next time. Soon after birth, we again forget our own promise to ourselves and we keep coming back to set things right for once and end up making mistakes again and again.

We spent our whole lives being at war with ourselves. We want one thing but do another because of someone else expectations. Where did it all start? At school. We wanted to play and have fun but we were told to compete with our fellow students. We were separated from each other by grading the students and telling some that they were smarter and superior than others. Therefore, the smarter ones deserve better pay and more luxuries. We divided the human race and segregated the society.

Do we ever behave like this at a party? We go to Friday night party just to have fun with friends, not to judge them for better or worse; just to have fun. We came to life to have a great time with others, not to compete with them or to judge them. We were brainwashed at an early age and we forgot our purpose and lost our way.
The purpose of every life is to enjoy life, reach unconditional love, help others enjoy their stay on this earth. We can't have fun just by ourself. We need to play with others nicely. When we all are happy, we all are at peace. Stop judging others, you are ruining others fun when you judge them.

Life is a party, enjoy it with friends. Nobody came here to pick a fight. It's just unfortunate that we end up fighting. Once started, this momentum doesn't stop. We have been taking sides and fighting  for long. We have created institutions that ensure that lifetime after lifetime they keep brainwashing us since childhood and we end up ruining our party time, every time.

Taming the God

I am a human. Rebellious is my nature and I hate God. I have heard of him from parents and society and this overrated being has done nothing for me. I can't see him therefore he doesn't exist.
A Dog is real. I love my pet, I nurture him and he loves me back and even protects me in time of need. The only problem with a Dog/ a pet is that they die before we do and then we get another one to  love us and protect us.

God on the other hand, they say, lives forever. He is unborn and undying. He is within and pervades within the whole existence. Even though I hate God and all the people who call themselves religious; I am fascinated by the descriptions. I have the urge to know the truth. Does he exist or not? Is God a reality or a fantasy?
The only way to know is to look within they say but I look at the state of the world and declare that God can't be perfect because if he was perfect then this world of his creation wouldn't be so flawed. So there I said my piece and I give up on him.

I know they said going within is the way to find him but that's too hard. I am too busy anaysing what my eyes see, how can I close my eyes and shut my internal chatter for a minute? Besides, why should I waste my time on something that can't be seen by the world and can't make me money that the world worships. I am fascinated though, only if I could talk to someone who can tell me more about God, if he exists that is. One day in my spare time, I may follow that up.
Christians say 'God is Love', so I love my dog and I do charity by giving money to a church or non-profit organisation. That is enough; should a God exist who wants answers after I die? Die I must, sooner or later....

Death will take away my body. Would I still exist without my body? What shall I do without my body? Would I be able to see without eyes then? Would I be able to smell and taste food? Would I be a ghost and fly around the earth, seeing my loved ones? What's the point if they can't see me? What else would I do with myself when I am dead? I mean when my body is dead.
Well, I travel places in my dreams, incidents happen and I react to them. What world do they exist in? Is that reality or fantasy? I should keep a diary of my dreams then I would have a better idea of where I go and what do I engage myself with in my dreams. It should give me some clue to what is possible to do without walking on my feet, without talking with my mouth and with my eyes closed.
If I can go elsewhere in my dreams then I should be able to do it while I am awake. Why don't I pretend sleep? Ok, I will close my eyes and fool my brain into thinking that I am sleeping and note where I go, what I do. If nothing else, my eyes need that rest, away from the rat race. Oh, who doesn't like a minute of peace. Finally I got to relax. It feels nice. May be I should do this everyday. Just five minutes for me.

Close my eyes and just be an observer. No plans, just watch. What am I watching, there is nothing to see? Can I hear any noises, without looking? How does that feel? Turn my ears off and note if I can smell anything. What kind of sensations my body is experiencing now? It's amazingly relaxing. I like resting for a while. I am glad I took a few minutes from my busy life to do this.
I am getting addicted to this relaxation. I want more time. I will spare some time every morning and evening for closing my eyes and being the observer. Going for a quiet walk at lunchtime is fun too. I can't close my eyes but I watch my breath while I walk. I didn't know that I don't breath equal amount of air from both nostrils. Forcing to breath more from the other doesn't work. I close the one that is not working fine. I breath in from one and let it out of the other and then reverse the cycle to open up the other side. Each day its different but today my right nostril works better than the left.

I am starting to enjoy the breathing game. I like balancing the body with breath. The body has two verticle halves, I breath in and feel one half move up and the other half goes down simultaneously.
This see saw of breath is fun. People call it meditation. I don't mind playing these games. I have started to see a purple light in between my eyes. It's fascinating to watch. There is some shinny stuff in there sometimes. Mostly, I see the purple and black swirls that go anti-clockwise, I think. I can't believe I can see things in my meditation. It is getting more and more interesting. I don't care if I will find God or not but I have definitely found peace.
I wonder, if I continue on this path, may be one day I will find out more. God, if you exist, please help me understand you. I just want to know the truth. Would you help me? I want to talk to you and ask you so many questions. At least, I will not dismiss the possibility that you may exist. I am open to  knowing. I will wait for my turn. May be one day will be my lucky day. I have already started this journey and will keep walking.

Change is normal then why resist it?

Everyday sun rises from the east, sets in the west. This routine hasn't changed from as long as humans can recall. It's also true that each day it rises from a slightly different angle and the change can be noticed if you mark the winter and summer position of sunrise at a particular place. So miner changes are expected and accepted without fear. It's only when people like Inuit elders say that their sky has changed and scientists say that earths figure axis has shifted, i.e. the poles have shifted that we realise that a big change has happened and those affected will have to adjust their lifestyle to new environment and its threats and turn them into opportunities.
This goes for religions as well. The esoteric philosophy of all religions has a common base, the spirituality, focus on breathing, mindfulness, compassion, unconditional love, focus on inner self etc etc. Each religious chapter was written in a different time period to suit the needs of that time and to address the existing issues of society. Therefore, the language and the culture of the time had a role to play which is evident from the rules of a particular religious game.
The personality that introduces change after going on a journey of self-discovery and after powerful awakening that bestows psychic and magical powers on the individual is able to bring a bigger reform in the existing society than those who merely introduce new vocabulary to describe the same stuff and try to rename a religion but end up being a sect of the same religion.
Every religion became a money making venture at some point for some individuals. As a religion spreads, so do the vices in it because people slowly moulded the base of the religion to suit themselves and changed the rules slowly. Then more people joined them, to exploit that market. So essentially there are spiritual people, religious people and entrepreneurs. May be we all have those tendencies but some gravitate more towards one side at a particular time.
So there is a pattern in religious growth, just like the four seasons in a year. The real change like the polar shift happens once in a lifetime that brings personal inner growth as well as enough changes to warrant a new religion. Rest assured that the new religion will also change some people's lives and will give business opportunities to the others. It's up to you to decide what phase are you in and what kind of change are you seeking and gravitating towards - spiritual, religious or business?

Devta - Gods and Kartapurakh

There are beggers and there are devtas. One takes and the other gives. Are you a begger or a Devta?
The word Devta means the one who gives. The dev and Devi words came from devtas to indicate the gender of the Devta; male being the Devta or dev for short or female being the Devi
Devtas live in heaven as per Hindu philosophy but are expelled from it as soon as they have a desire to satisfy themselves, as the desire makes them a begger. There are several stories of devas being sent to earth when they looked at another with lust.
Christianity also talks of Adam and Eve who were happy in the garden of Eden but the moment they experienced hunger to satisfy themselves and they took the apple to eat, (not to give away to another); they are sent to earth.
Guru Nanak in his explanation of God, talks of Karta Purakh, nirbhao, nirvair. The direct translation of the purakh is the being and Karta is the doer that takes action, nirbhao is an adjective to explain the acts of Kartapurakh that are done without fear. Only the one that is not entangled in his own insecurities and desires can help others without attachment and fear. Nirvair is also an adjective to explain that the beings actions are not motivated by animosity.
Guru Nanak is known as Guru Nanak Dev possibly because he was a giver. His life stories reveal him  as someone that people turned to when all else failed and he performed miracles not to benefit himself or his family but humanity.
Who are you? What are you chasing each day? What do you desire the most in life? Your dreams reveal all that each night. Before going to sleep remind yourself to remember every dream. When you are asleep and are in the middle of a dream, try to understand the symbolic meaning of it. Keep a diary beside your bed and wake up and write the dream down as soon as you become aware of it. Soon you will know if you are seeking more material things for yourself or engaged in appreciating what is and helping others and giving.
Listen to the shabad Devteyan darshan ke taain dukh bhukh terath kiye

Guru Nanak's Moolmantra and the true self

Guru Nanak was a true wizard with lots of magical and psychic powers and yet the one that preached to not get involved in using them as they power the ego. He was a great social reformer who believed in the equality of man and woman and of all social classes. In his view, a person is better or worse not by his wealth or knowledge but the way we treat other beings. He believed in honest living and sharing of profits. In his ideal world all one needed to do was to produce food and basic necessity items, share them equally and meditate on God. He believed that music transcends anyone much easier than breath control techniques but also emphasised on chanting a word with the feeling of love and gratitude. This way to God is through the heart, the feeling centre. Guru Nanak described God in a few words -

Ik O Ang Kaar - one part of my being
Satnaam - that is truth
Karta purakh - that creates
Nirbhau - one that is without fear
Nirvair - without enimosity
Akaal Murat - that never dies
Ajuni - and never takes birth
Saibhang - forever continues and is self existent
Gur parsaad - is known with the grace of a spiritual master / inner guide.

Nanak further says

Jap - continuously remember / chant

Aad sach - the primal truth
Jugad Sach - will be true in the future
Hai Bhai sach - is the truth at present
Nanak Hosi Bhi Sach - O Nanak, will stay the truth.

In Nanak's view, there is a truth within us that has no enemies or fear, so it doesn't take sides and can't be set aside while we count our profits and rip others off a comfortable living standard. The truth within us is watching every injustice we commit in the name of looking after our family, improving our lot and whatever other notion we have created in the name of a capitalist economy. This primal truth is going to be with us forever, long after we have shed this body that we cherish and try to give all the luxuries and comforts to. This body is not going to thank us for all that we did to protect it, but a part of us that is truth and the one that creates bodies, life forms with a mere desire, and the one that seeks justice is the one we need to satisfy and answer to. That truth within us is the only master we need to serve.

Changing lives - healing to create life and prevent death

Even thought I was given healing light in one of my meditations and later I went to learn reiki when I started feeing energy move in my body everytime I saw Reiki symbols; I prefer not to do healing, not even to my children when they are sick. The reason being that I start feeling the pain of the patient in my body for days after the healing. I was told that may be I unknowingly use The method of healing in which one takes on another's disease and then processes it in her own body. This person laughed at me and said, off course the other person will get better when you take it on. I have been told to use protection before healing session, so I don't get affected but I always skip this step.

Recently I found out that one of my colleagues sister is dying of cancer. He himself is a Reiki master and has given healing to her many times and saved her for years. Two months ago he was called to say goodbye to her which he wasn't prepared to do. He saved her once more and came back to work happy. This time I had sent healing to her and noticed that she is angry at something that happened in her childhood years. According to her brother, she is angry that her mother never loved her. This mother had eleven children and the people mentioned are the last two children. Weather the mother had time to love the children or not is besides the point when one is close to sixty years of age. The point is that the patient needs to forgive her mother for not giving her the amount of attention this child wanted but she can't seem to forgive her mother. I tried so hard to unpack her bags but there was one item left in her bag last time and I heard the words, " she would be saved in time". I never understood what does that mean? Why did she have three flowers in her hair when I saw her as a little girl?
Last week when I went to work, I found out that he has gone to say final goodbye to her. I felt sad for him. Then I caught very bad viral infection, apparently the the real influenza and was very sick for days. On the third day of sickness, I was so weak that everytime I tried to close my eyes for meditation, I immediately started seeing the purple swirl in the third eye. The moon was also about to go full in a day or two. I decided that I should utilise this time to do meditation and try to pray for someone who is desperate for a child but can't fall pregnant for years due to some cyst on the overy.

While in meditation, my attention kept going back to my colleagues dying sister, so instead I tried to send her some healing and unpack her bag fully this time. I took every single item from her handbag out and even tried to tear its insides to see if the was anything hidden that wasn't taken out. At that I felt that may be I shouldn't have done that. It felt like I didn't have the permission to stop her, so I mentioned my colleagues name and said that I am trying to heal his sister, so the connection is known and energy gets accepted. To my surprise she suddenly put on her glamorous red dress with embroidery, and hair done like a bride, took her little six year old self with her waving goodbye, ruining all my efforts to save her. I was shocked how suddenly she changed her mind just minutes after she had accepted the energy as if that was the most powerful thing she could do to get attention. I changed the colour of her dress and tried a few things but felt that she is determined to keep going back to her path of anger and that's why nobody can save her. It might take her a few lifetimes to learn to forgive.
I felt sad that I wasted my time and energy on someone determined to die for the sake of attention instead of doing something for someone who is praying for a child everyday. Why am I not helping them even when my mother had asked for help indirectly? I believe God is wiser and our efforts never bring desired results. Whatever God does is for a good reason but who was I to think that they should think of adopting a child instead of having their own, risking the month era life who has a cyst on the overy and can't fall pregnant. I have been asked, so I should try to help I thought and started praying for them. I was told that it would take six months for the cyst to go away, another 6-8 months for the girl to fall pregnant naturally and then 9 months for the baby to come, so it will all happen in the next 24 months. I was worried if the mother would survive after the birth. Upon asking, I saw her doing the child's hair when he was 3-4 years old. Then I asked what kind of a person this child would be? He seemed like a strong built warrior type. I didn't feel comfortable about the warrior thing, why would he need to be a warrior to spread his religion in the South India? So I asked, is that a good thing that he will be born altering the God's Will? Would the child have a good life? I heard the words 'ahankare marna' meaning will die because of ego.
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Warrior is a person who acts even in the face of fear, nothing to do with a war of weapons. Funny how I had to read this book which mentioned fear and warriors tonight. I love the universe, it always answers the questions, except sometimes I don't understand. Fear dissolves with conscious action and focuses on now. Read page 77 onwards and the next chapter is on anger. The book is Mystic secrets revealed by Edwin Harkness Spina. Two healthy responses to anger which is caused by unmet expectations is to act or accept reality. I can't believe the next chapter 'take back your power' is answering my question about my self doubt on weather it's right to heal and attempt to alter the course of life. I do listen to my inner master and that's the only time I heal and create, as per the direction from the higher self. 

Attempts to dismantle Sikh faith?

Was it his left over energy that told me the truth? I know everytime an awaited visitor comes, I generally feel their energy. I have had episodes where I play the most beautiful tunes and sing like a pro for a couple of days or feel like meditating and I outperform my natural self and time and time again I have found that it wasn't my energy, I was feeling someone else's energy as I can no longer sustain that calibre.
I am writing this post after having a very strange dream that woke me up at 3.30 am. In the dream, I had some acquaintances who came to my house and were helping me prepare a big meal for some guests. I was glad that they were doing it as if it was their own workload. After the preparation, we decided to go out together. I was thinking of going out for a movie and have some photos taken. I said to this girlfriend who is an actual person that I went school with; that we will post the photos of two of us on facebook for our sisters to see who were college friends themselves. (This particular friend is a Kabir pathi and  I recall her saying that they are Hindu-Punjabi  when I innocently asked her in year two. She is a genuinely nice person. I like her and will always admire her. I believe her appearance was a symbol to help me understand the dream in the right context. I love all Kabir panthis and followers of other Hindu Saints whose bani is written in the Guru Granth Sahib. The following account is as I saw it in the dream.)

Next I saw that we were sitting inside a small temple who's boundary touched the next door Gurdwara. I looked at the very elegant gurdwara building and recognised it as the one I had visited not so long ago.
I shared with the ladies how God works in mysterious ways, "I wanted to visit this Gurdwara during this trip but didn't recall the address and you have brought me to this temple right next door and I am now able to see the gurdwara, I wanted to visit".

I praised the temple people for kindly giving away a small part of the temple land to finish the temple project as they fell short of a few feet.
I praised how the Gurdwara has reciprocated the love by not having a big wall but a very short fence between the two religious buildings, so the temple people could also view the Guru Granth Sahib in the downstairs rest room where three holy scriptures were resting on the Palang / bed and one of those had a shiny red cloth and the other two looked ordinary.

The people in the temple clarified truthfully,"Thats's not a Gurdwara. That building has been named Gurdwara only to attract visitors to generate more income".

I was stunned and then thought back that I had asked the granthi on my last visit, "how come there are so many non-turbaned people employed?" At that the caretaker of the Gurdwara had explained how the temple people had been so kind and the story of when the Gurdwara had fallen short of land, they helped by giving away land to complete the grand project. Now it all made sense to me, why so many non-Sikhs were working in the Gurdwara. I wasn't angry, just surprised.

Next I saw that we were in the yard of this lady whose husband came with a big truck. He drove the truck over an autoriksha sized very ordinary looking old black shell of a car with wheels, no seats inside and couldn't carry very many people. I gathered he was smashing it because now he had the big powerful truck to do the same job. He was making it look like an accident and was destroying the proof that he had ever used the car.
He got out of the truck after a successful third attempt to squash the shell of the car and was removing two decorative pieces so violently that the metal hit his wife's neck and look a big chunk of her skin with it. The wife was working nearby and her hands had mud on them, so she couldn't hold the sore herself. The blood had started to seep out of the skin and was pouring.
Her friend who was next to her wasn't helping much, so I ran to get some piece of cloth. I couldn't find anything big enough to be a bandaid, so I picked up my sons white patka/ head cover. Then I realised her soiled hands also needed cleaning. So I walked up to the hand pump where my mother-in-law was sitting with a friend and had just finished their meal. I asked her in shock, "did you hear what they told me about the Gurdwara? ", grabbing one of the bowls to wash, so I could fill clean water to wash the patients hands.

Next it was dark. I was at the front door of my home and heard my littles child calling me from the other side of the house. I checked the time in the dream and it was 6pm, I was late coming home so his preschool teacher had dropped her outside my house at 5.30pm but he couldn't get in thinking the house was locked. I was feeling guilty and anxious to get in. Where are my house keys? I didn't know. Then remembered that I had locked it from the back door. Just then I noticed that door wasn't properly shut anyway, so I could get in. I wished my child had known this, it would have been much nicer if the poor child could have got inside the house and waited for me, rather than outside in the dark, distressed.

The dream made me wonder why I had such a dream. I couldn't find any connection to any videos I may have watched regarding attack on sikhi. Then I remembered that the High Commissioner of India had visited our town yesterday. So was it his left over energy that told the truth in my dream? Is it actually the case that Indian government has created pretend Sikhs to muddy the sikh traditions and to introduce Hindu ways in sikh homes and gurdwaras? I was asking this question time and time again in my sleep when I started saying,"Jo Gur Kahai, Soi Bhal Mano, Har Har Katha Nirali". The only way forward for Sikhs is to follow the holi scripture Shri Guru Granth Sahib Ji. I woke up repeating this gurbani line.

First Interpretation - Shell of the car
In hind sight, Guru Gobind Singh ji was very wise for appointing the SGGS as the present guru and stop anyone from diluting the sikh religion.
The new technology has saved the Sikhs as the Guru Granth has been digitised. Then I thought of the Akhand Kirtani Jatha and how they have tried to keep the sikhi pure and then realised why they become the first target of attack and are portraid as terrorists.

Second Insight - 7am same day
I thought about what I had written in the blog and how it can be interpreted as if its written by someone who actually believes in the conspiracy theory about Indian government trying to dilute sikh and get rid of the Khalsa created by Guru Gobind Singh. I have never believed this until this day and had thought that sikhs were paranoid about this.
Then my attention moved to the real life friend that was in the dream, so I clarified in parenthesis how I actually feel about my friend. Next I sent a Facebook message to her asking about the traditions followed by Kabir panthis. Sant Kabir and other saints bani is part of the Guru Granth, so the hindus that follow these saints genuinely believe that Guru Granth is respectable because it upholds their Guru's teachings. So in that sense the temple people do believe that they gave a few feet of their land to the Gurdwara. Do you see the connection? If that is true, then they genuinely do sewa at the Gurdwaras believing it to be their own duty, not to help me. I was representation of sikhs in this dream.

Where do followers of Saints mentioned in Guru Granth Sahib stand in relation to the Gurdwaras?
Sand Kabir and Guru Nanak's teachings are exactly same. Both believe in one formless God and deter people from worshipping the hindu idols and empty religious traditions that don't help you grow spiritually. The main difference I believe  would be that Kabir may not have stipulated that his deciples keep long hair. On the other hand, it is believed that Guru Nanak told Mardana, his first decipel to keep uncut hair; even though there is no indication that Mardana officially changed religion from Muslim to Sikh, Mardana kept long hair under his turban. Their is a misconception that Guru Gobind Singh ji started the tradition of long hair and a turban.
Guru Gobind Singh ji upheld every tradition that was already being preached unto that time. As historians say, Guru Gobind Singh ji gave a clear strong frame to recognise Sikhs. Overtime, people start to do their own thing and still stay loosely connected to the teachings but don't always follow any rules that hinder their fashion statement. Guru Gobind Singhs code can be seen as a problem by Sikhs that wish to follow fashion and also by those who wish to amalgamate Sikhs into hindus for political reasons. So the disagreement issue is not spiritual but political and civil matter.
Even to the extent that fifth Guru, Guru Arjan Dev ji collected the bani's of saints and gave respect to Adi Granth by displaying it on a higher platform than himself. Later, Guru Gobind Singh ji added the bani's of later Guru's, not his own to the Granth and gave it the status of living Guru.
When I went to south India to visit the 5th Takhat in Nanded, I was amazed to see Guru Gobind Singh jis female devotees in Banjara / Gypsy uniform praising him in their own language doing their traditional dance. I spoke to one of them and couldn't understand her language but gathered that they gave Guru Gobind singh ji the highest regard as their saviour. These were Guru Gobind Singh ji's allies.
So if Kabir Pathi's are Guru's friends, muslims consider Guru Nanak their pir and these gypsies are Guru Gobind Singh jigs allies then who are the enemies of Sikhs? Whoever they are, they can't be people interested in spirituality or humanity.

Third attempt - 10 days later
My friend who's father use to read Kabir ji's dohe was surprised that I even remember him doing so. She knew that he quoted them all the time but didn't recall him reciting them as daily practice. In the last fifteen years of his life, he did meditation. Interesting to note that my friend didn't count herself or her father as a follower of Kabir. This is the very issue historians mention with Sant Kabir ji's teachings. Even though he gave a very clear message that coincided with Guru Nanak's; his followers soon became unidentifiable and started considering themselves as a sect of hinduism whereas the followers of Guru Nanak were led by the following guru's who strengthened his message in peoples mind and finally made identifiable by Guru Gobind Singh ji's Khalsa uniform. Even though not everyone becomes khalsa, the sikh faith has an official physical appearance to identify them unlike Sant Kabir and other sant followers who defy idol worship and follow Guru Nanak's path. So understandably this is precisely why Hindu authorities are interested in eradicating the sikhs with khalsa appearance, so Sikh faith could be mingled into hinduism. In my mind if the government was fair, there is no need to eradicate any minority as they are never a threat to anyone. Minorities only ever stand against government when there are injustices to fight as their survival is endangered. So the real enemy of a Hindu state is not Sikhs but their own discrimination and injustices against sikhs and their land.

What tradition should be followed as far as Guru Granth Sahib's respect is concerned?
It should be what Guru Arjan Dev ji prescribed as the compiler of the original Adi Granth which included his own bani. So the traditions followed in Golden Temple Shri Harmandir Sahib Amritsar have to be followed. Do not turn the Granth into another idol and place Tilak/ bindi on it, Guru Arjan didn't do that.

Most importantly, on an individual level follow the messages written in the Granth. "Jo Gur Kahai, Soi Bhal Mano, Har Har Katha Nirali".

Meditation X - Navel is the core

Third chakra is two inches here or there from the navel. Focus on this point with each breath. Now squeeze the anus with each inbreath. Know that there is a front passage from navel to anus and one down the spine. Let the energy flow down from navel into both these passages with each inbreath and
Bring it back with each outbreath. Practice for 3-4 minutes.
Second stage - focus on the throat chakra and let the energy flow down both passages upto the navel and back.
Now focus on the navel and send the energy upwards to the throat with each inbreath, using both passages and with every second breath, send the energy down upto anus and back.
Remember navel is your core, connecting to navel is very important. It holds you together, so whenever you feel like everything is falling apart, come back to your core and everything will fall in place.

Soul's Integrity and God

"Integrity means much more than just honesty. The real test of integrity is to be honest even when no one is looking.' writes Vikas Swarup in his book The accidental apprentice. Integrity reflects a deep sense of right and wrong. It seems that we might be able to pin point todays world problems to this trait. History chapters reveal that people have attempted earlier to bring equality in this world by introducing communism or welfare system. It seems that neither have helped. Communism gives no incentive to those who wish to work harder and welfare system encourages people to cheat by showing lower income and appearing needy. Despite the faults in the mentioned systems, it can't be proven that economic systems promoting profit are healthy either. Earning super profits  might be justified in a democratic society on the basis of existing laws, like Bill Gates once said on Australian TV - don't blame me for paying lower taxes, blame the law. He laughed when he indicated to change the law to get more tax out of his company but who passes legislation, the politicians who relay on big businesses donations to win the elections/ How can they pass any taxes that will cut the pockets of those who supply the politicians/ You have seen the fate of an Australian PM who tried to tax mining industry's super profits. Defaming a pawn is not a difficult task for financially powerful. Neither is it too difficult to replace the seat with another pawn.

The issue I struggle with regarding super profits is that when one earns super profits, someone definitely loses, may it be the present employees or the next generation. It may be an issue of moral compass but that is something invisible like integrity. Like the the write further explains the dilemma of his character in the above mentioned book, 'There is no software, no device that can reveal a person's true feelings with hundred percent accuracy'. So we can't judge anyone without knowing all of their actions. They may be earning super profits and then giving back to the society in the form of charity, or free vaccination. We are not God, so we can't judge others.

Guru Nanak also tried to create a fairer society when he gave away free food for the first time in life and later when he bought land and allowed anyone to join him to farm it and shared the produce with all. The ideology behind Guru Nanak's actions, I believe, was that sunshine, air, water and land to produce food should be available to all and those who don't have the physical or mental capability should be supported by those who can. So he did believe in welfare state in one way but also believed in working to earn honestly. He didn't accept super profits as honest living as he believed in sharing equally with all workers and those that are incapable.

The software that reveals a person's true feelings is called the soul. Soul never lies, only our brain does. I had one such experience when I was forcing meditation upon myself to fulfil my goal of achieving enlightenment before I turned 40. The urgency was that if Guru Nanak was enlightened in his mid thirty, 33 years and six months precisely according to one source, Buddha was also younger than 40; then I must do it before my chakras naturally become too slow due to age factor and diminish my chances of succeeding in this life time, even though I started the journey late.

It had been at least a couple of years since I had been on this mission and I was getting impatient
with my progress when one day I heard in meditation, a voice said tomorrow is your day. I knew clearly it wasn't a voice of my own desire, I have heard a distinct voice before. I know when its my own and when its not. I got so excited as I understood my day means the day I will be revealed the secrets of the universe in a big way, much grander than the little bits of information I have received and the visions I have seen. Just then my soul spoke, 'but I am still greedy' and I heard my mind got agitated and growled at my soul, 'couldn't you keep quiet, you have lost my only chance that I so longed for.' Then my analytical self woke up and started making sense of it all and only got more confused. Which one of those voices was the real me, amazed at the fact that there is something within me that stopped me from achieving my goal by revealing a truth that I had hidden so well even from myself. I had truly believed that I was turning so spiritual then and was shocked at the revelation that I was greedy inside. It took me months to ponder over my life and work out why my soul believes I am still greedy.

One thing was clear from this experience that we can cheat the whole world in believing that we are nice but the soul has the integrity and alliance with God source within us that it never cheats, not even when your brain tells it to. That might be why they say, 'Sir dhar tali gali merit aao'. If you want to precede on the path of God / Truth / righteousness, then give up your brain and follow the heart and the Guru / inner guidance's teachings. It's not an easy path because the brain gets in the way, who by nature is competitive not fair.

Moments of wonder and awe can change your life

The nursery rhyme 'Twinkle 'Twinkle little star how I wonder what you are' expresses the feeling of wonder and awe and so does Guru Nanak's Japji Sahib. The wonder and awe expressed by Guru Nanak demonstrates that just like the little star spotted by the person who wrote it, Nanak saw light beings when he described

'Tithe Lowe lowe aakar,

 jiv jiv hukum tive tiv kaar

vekhe vigee kar veechar,

Nanak katana Karra Saar.

Just like nature fills us with the feeling of awe, so does a great meditation session but only when we first have the desire to know the truth behind this universe, this existence and we are absorbed deeply in this contemplation. Imagine the twinkle twinkle rhyme being sung by someone in a social setting and the same by someone actually watching the star, absorbed in the awe and you will realise the difference between attending a religious session in the Temple, Gurdwara, church, mosque and a quiet meditation session at home. The point is to be absorbed in the moment with the feeling. Without the feeling, the words can't do much magic and those who haven't had any first hand experience will not understand the power of those words. So recite your scriptures only to gain inspiration and to go inside yourself and dig out that feeling of wonder and awe to experience something special.  Find time to have a conversation with the universe and believe that it will provide wisdom in the moment of silence.

Slowing down ageing

Focus on your temples and then on pineal gland. Make a V shape by focusing continuously between these points. Then I was making the energy go down the spine and come back up. I was trialling this without any intent and suddenly saw my date of birth being written and noticed that the year was 8 years later than my real birth year, I was surprised and wondered why it was wrong.

 Later that day I stumbled upon a website that explained the symbol gamma which resembled the Y that I was making.   It said that time slows down in rockets and explained it why. http://www.sixtysymbols.com/videos/gamma_three.htm

So I understood that this might be a powerful meditation to slow down the ageing process.

Purpose of Meditation

As a child I use to think meditation is boring, you sit with your eyes closed, repeat a set of words and get bored. Then I realised that I actually need to listen to the sound my voice is making. Then I started noticing the effect of the vibration of the sound on my body and on the universe around me. Then I learnt to become one with the universe by listening to the universe.
At the very least, it heightens your listening ability. We have five senses and the first step is to expand the abilities of theses senses.
Creative Visualisation helps expand the ability to see. Feeling the wind touching your skin, expands your touch and feel sensations.
Focus on the air around your nose and try to smell. Smells connect us to our past emotions and awaken our past memories.
Taste is probably the last of the senses to work with and I haven't done that yet.
But is that it, is the purpose of meditation to heighten our senses and do magic using visualisation ? Some get stuck here and believe this to be the end purpose, to be able to mould the world around them to suit their dreams and ego. This is a big mistake. You have failed your first test, if you believe this to be the destination.
The destination is to know and meet the primal being, experience being invited by this being to enter his fort/ temple. This I have not experienced, so I can't say but Guru Nanak mentions the moment when he was invited by the primal being and Nanak says that in the state of estcasy, he felt no desire to ask for anything else but his presence. This seems to be a very different destination than visiting your own temple within your body that Christopher Peczard mentions in his book Temple of .....I have visited the temple within me and its a beautiful and unforgettable experience but it doesn't match the description given by Nanak.
Heightened awareness of senses will bring the ability of clairvoyance etc. These abilities are called riddi siddhi. They are the tools to help you move towards your goal to know the universe, not to manipulate it. Someone makes you a friend and shows their house to you, that doesn't mean that now you have the licence to alter anything or take away whatever you like from their house. Build the trust and a time will come when the friend will treat you like a member of the family, then you will have more rights but for now don't start using your abilities to manipulate the world for your benefit.
However, healing someone is not for your personal benefit, therefore if you are asked to help with healing someone and you have been given the light from your temples into your hands during meditation, then the universe is showing you the path of healing.

Salt and blood in third chakra

I did a meditation based on Barbara Ann Brennens suggestions that every chakra is a cone and one could go inside any body part through the vortex and see inside. I didn't want to see inside any body part but I wanted to see what feeling / desire / belief / karma inside me was responsible for my problems. I requested to have wisdom on why I am facing one conflict after another when all I want is peace?

As I started meditation, I felt like focusing on third chakra and it made sense as it's the chakra of will power to survive the physical world. A huge vortex was formed facing outwards, not upwards. Then I saw salt at the bottom of the vortex. I didn't see that as a good thing, so I wanted to wash away the salt. So I saw thick blood coming from the left hand side. I did not think that was a good mix either. So I tried to wash them both out with water and attempted to make a hole on one side of the bottom of the vortex, but I was told that it's not possible and is a bad idea. So I suppose don't puncture holes in chakras to cleanse anything.

Then I placed a clear quarts crystal there and it felt good as if the crystal soaked everything.

I checked the dream dictionary and one of the meanings of the salt says
" Salt As a distillation of everything we know, salt represents wisdom."

Can anyone offer any advice?
Should I have not tried to wash the salt away? Is that the indication of wisdom that guides my life and I should listen to the gut feeling? 

Wet Sponge meditation

14 points below and 14 above, feel the wet sponge at each point
Go beyond the centre of the earth and as far above as possible.
Centre of the body then two sides
Chain
Bicycle chain, pedals near the heart chakra
Four points of heart chakra, lotus shape, move outwards

Healing mantra - forever changing and figure 8

'Sahib Mera Neet Navan' means My master is 'Forever Changing'. The force that rules your body and this universe is forever changing. Disease comes when we stop changing and get stuck on one thought and its emotion. Whatever bad thing, behaviour or action happened with you once is a thing of past. The cells of the body are changing and moving on from that point of time but if you keep taking yourself back to that point the process of moving to next point gets disruptive, nonetheless the force has to move forward, so in the tussle to move forward and your effort to take it backwards caused whatever disease you have been diagnosed with. If there is no time to go to past life therapy etc there is no need to either. Simply let the movement happen naturally and without resistance, the new cells will be normal.
Clockwise direction is for moving forward and anticlockwise is for undoing something. There is no need to undo anything, simply let the purple light tick in the clockwise direction. To heal continuously draw number 8 over the patients body and let the guidance come and change its shape a bit. When I asked where should the crossing over of the eight figure happen- on the belly button or below, I was shown the upper half bigger than lower half but the lower half line was over the middle of the legs, not below the feet. I don't know if this was simple because of the limitation of healers body to reach that far but the upper line definitely went above the head. Watch the energy which flows like a torch light flooding the whole half circle and in fact moving so fast that both circles are filled with light at all times. Then I noticed that it wasn't figure 8 strictly, it's more like letter B but the energy moves in the shape of 8. Later the heads of the 8 moved towards the right and resembled a lotus shape. When I asked what is this, I received its beauty. So I presume that once you start the process, let the guidance come forward and change the shape.
I later tried to think more on figure 8 and found that clockwise and anticlockwise works for so many things like clockwise is feeding, and anticlockwise is digesting. So for diabetic patients it's the digesting which needs fixing. Have to get more answers and they were coming but I was eager to write and couldn't focus.
Before the info about healing chronically ill patients I was asking how the creation happens so I could use that knowledge to heal. First there was a male figure standing facing me. Then there was a female standing facing me, it wasn't me as I was watching her third eye synchronise with mine. Then she stayed at 12 o clock position but every second or less, a copy of her was created and moved to the 1 o'clock clock and then 2 o' clock onwards. This way she was being copied clockwise continuously but every second she was a new form of herself.
Following this I saw four lines, two moved in East west direction and back, and the other north south and back. It came to me that East west was negative ions and North south was positive ions, or at least that how mathematics signs of - and + were created. I understood that contraction back to the original point is very important for the process to work properly. Then I realised how inflammation happens. The expansion happens but the contraction doesn't work properly.

Parsley has oxytocin produced by the pituitary gland

'Feeling of unconditional love' is encouraged in all religions. Oxytocin released by the pituitary gland, a pea sized gland is known as the love hormone. It causes contractions in the uterus during orgasm and is responsible for the feeling of gratification. It's release is also affected by the same causes that it effects. Therefore, the law more produces more.
The researchers agree that oxytocin is also released during deep meditation casing the same feelings. It's no surprise then that their is a sect of Tantric yogis in India that believe that practicing sex will lead them to God if they keep the focus in the upper chakras. From personal experience, I do not recall it producing the effect of uterus contractions. On the other hand, it is one of the gates you have to keep shut to stop the energy from escaping through this door initially. Later on in the session, uterus stays contracted effortlessly when one is in deep meditation.

Last night I read that pituitary gland is located behind the nose, above the roof of the mouth were the lining of the soft tissue begins. It's a secretory organ and therefore it's possible that it's responsible for producing the drops of Amrit that meditators strive to attain. This clarifies for me why placing the tongue on the palate is recommended. The tongue must stimulate the secretion of hormones by the pituitary gland.

For those who just want quick and easy results I also read that Parsley has oxytocin produced by the pituitary gland. So eat lots of parsley.

neuroscience and meditation experiences

There is consistency in the kinds of experiences people have during meditation or when they have near death experiences. One of them is seeing yourself out of your body. Angular gyrus in the brain is responsible for balance and touch. The site http://faculty.washington.edu/chudler/obe.html explains the link between out of body experience and angular gyrus.Weak  stimulation of the right angular gyrus caused the patients to report the feeling of 'sinking into the bed' as mentioned in Betty Eddings book 'embracing the light'.

Stronger stimulation caused out of body experience. One patient reported seeing herself lying in bed, from above, but only saw her legs and lower trunk." At other times she reported feelings of "lightness" and of "floating" two meters above the bed. 

These experiences are identical to those of meditators. My own very first experience of floating meters above was at the age of three or four. I never forgot that experience. I had my hair washed and wet when dad called us to meditate for a short period before having our breakfast. Being a little child, I first tried to open one eye to check what other siblings were doing and when I realised that nobody was playing games, I decided out of boredom to actually give it a go and started chanting. Within less than five to ten minutes, I was floating at least a meter above ground. It was a great experience but out of excitement I opened my eyes and was disappointed to see that I was firmly sitting on the ground.

What is stunting your spiritual growth?

Time and time again, the enlightened ones tried to reveal the truth in their own way and everytime we clung to their words without digging deep for the message and in doing so distorted the truth. The reason for clinging to the ritualistic side is because it's physical, mindless and easy.

How do we manage to distort the true message everytime? It's because, we read, speak, listen and hear the message but evaluate it differently based on our limiting beliefs, values and social conditioning. 

What do you believe is stunting your spiritual growth? For me it's the worry of acceptance by the society. The inner self knows the truth and I feel that the only way I feel true happiness is when I have had a beautiful meditation experience. I know that when I continuously have great meditation sessions where I reach the void where there is no thought or worry and one receives inner guidance, the effect the people around me have is a certain magnetism. It's a very real change in the physical world. It's much easier to achieve anything just by mere thought. It's effortless.   The problem I face is that I start enjoying the state of void so much that I want to remain in it forever but then I have to go to work, need to communicate with my children and the world. The moment I enter that world, I worry about how people perceive me, hence the need to follow fashion, make and spend more money, create monetary wealth to gain respect in society. The inner world says to work for the good of the community and spend your money on it whereas the physical world suggests to become wealthy and look after your children and their monetary success. If one does a little good for others then the big ego comes to destroy that pleasure and tells us that I did it and it becomes a competition as well. Then you look around and note that every religious building, sect, person is trying to use their knowledge to create more wealth whether it's by selling books, cd or by creating retreats, schools, churches or temples. 

The pain of going to and fro between truth and falsehood, meditation and the physical world and the very different conditions of success in the two worlds, is too great and as a result it's just easy to do the religious ritualistic activity than sincerely do the real thing. 

Crossing the river

I heard from a lady that had near death experience that she saw a river. It was green, slimy and sticky. She found it very difficult to cross. She was given the knowledge during that experience that everyone needs to cross this river to get to the other side and those who slander others can't cross it.
I wondered about this river.  Gurbani mentions about a river that is very difficult to cross- 
 Bikham nadi jai tarni, 

A couple of days ago when I read about the physical location of the crystal palace and it's close proximity to 4th ventricle in the brain, I wondered if Gurbani indicates to this area of the brain when guru Nanak wrote Nanak Chauthe pad mein so jan gat pahen only because Chauthe means 4th. I have written a different meaning of this in a previous blog, associating it to the 4 stages of consciousness. My issue is that I am always looking for the physical location, or proximity for a clearer explanation and physical focus point.

One translation of the emerald tablet says, "
The river of life is cerebrospinal fluid that enters the brain through the FOUR ventricles, this cosmic energy, renews the mind, to gain cosmic consciousness." Source: www.maya12-21-2012.com/2012forum/index.php?topic=2612.0

Search for the crystal palace within

Long time ago, I had a great experience when I saw a emerald green crystal shape move down into the centre of my body, the heart chakra. It then crumbled into pieces that spread throughout my body. I worried at the time if it was good or bad for me. I was puzzled and questioned where it came from and what it meant. All I knew that after the experience I felt immense peace and my shoulder pain and lower back pain disappeared as if I never had a problem. I associated the meaning of  'Naam Japat Mana harya hovai' to this experience.

I rely on Gurbani, the writings in the Sikh scripture, so I understood that the words
Mat Vich Rattan Javahar Manik
mentioned in Japji Sahib does not simply represent something precious but literally means that within our brain are crystals and similar substances. Elsewhere in Gurbani, Guru ji writes Rattan Padarath Ladha, indicating that he has found the crystal substance.

Yesterday, I went to see the movie 'Song of the New Earth', not having a clue what it's about. In it Tom Kenyon talked about a specific experience where he fell down into a hole and saw crystal men who asked him a question. I found his experience weird and unlike mine but my concern is the crystals. So I went on Toms website to see if he mentions anything further explaining what he understood about the crystal men. I found no mention of that experience but instead a beautiful meditation called the crystal palace within focusing on four points. Read Tom's blog on crystal-palace-within. Reading it made me realise how and why I had the Crystal experience.

I have done similar meditations in 2009, intuitively. My blogs of the time should mention the points I use to focus on. In 2002, I attended a yoga class once for fitness, not realising that the practices taught would benefit  me in meditation years later. Kundalini Tantra book mentions about a meditation in which you imagine your body is hung on a piece of string. This naturally helps you focus on a point above your head at one hand distance. This point is vital to focus on. I have mentioned it in another blogpost and realisation of this point improved my meditation results immensely.
I had already started focusing on the third eye after reading Samuel Sagan's book but experiencing the power of points at one hand distance was a great accidental realisation for me. When I started feeling the pain in the third eye area and the forum discussions on the internet pointed out to stop focusing on third eye as I was trying to hard, instead of letting it happen; and instead I started focusing on the heart along with the above head point at one hand distance.

The realisation that I could focus on more than one point at a time was an exciting one. By now I had already focused individually on the three points mentioned above. The tree meditation where you are suppose to imagine that you are a tree and have roots going down to the centre of the earth had given me some practice of the focus on above the head as well as the centre of the earth focus but not both simultaneously along with third eye and heart chakra focus. So even though I thought I use to focus on three points, I was probably focusing on four points as mentioned in Tom Kenyon's meditation. So what he has mentioned in this meditation had come to my realisation over a long period practical trials.

Another website talking about the Crystal palace within is http://biologyofkundalini.com/article.php?story=TheCrystalPalace

So the point of the blog is to clarify that Gurbani mentions about this, we just think that it's symbolic of precious lifetime but not as a specific experience or place within us which is the truth.
Ratan tyag kaodi sang rachai, sach chord jhuth sang machai.
The above lines are literally suggesting to visit the crystal palace within us.

Regarding Tom Kenyon, even though I am not convinced about the earth talking to him about respecting it, I do agree with the overall messages given in the movie as I saw them to be in line with what Guru Nanak said and did. I am not elevating Tom to the status of Guru Nanak, not even comparing him in that sense; just mentioning the similarities in messages, even when Tom was not revealed the Secret whereas Guru Nanak was invited in Gods mansion.

Guru Nanak sang and requested Mariana to play his musical instrument saying 'Bani ai hai', the words are coming from God. That's why Sikh call it Dhur ki bani and Guru Nanak said music/ sound is the most direct way to connect to God.
 Kaljug  main Kirtan pardhana.
Guru Nanak also talked about Word / shabad / Akhar. He said
shabad guru, surt dhun (sound) chela.
.....Akhar Jin ok aya.

Guru Nanak travelled around the earth for 22 years spreading the message.
Guru Nanak spread the message to treat women equal, 500 years ago.

Who are you devoted to? A religious sect or One Creator?

When people first get drawn towards a religion, they become very devoted and strictly attach themselves to the panth and engross themselves with what is right by the religion and what is wrong. They try to judge everyone's lifestyle based on their notion of right and wrong. This goes for Sikhs, Christians and Muslims alike. That's why Guru Nanak found it easy to preach his message to people of all religions during his travels, as he was well aware of the follies of religious people. He never asked anyone to convert into sikhism, he only pointed out that tasks performed as part of a ritual are meaningless, if you failed in attempting to connect with the divine.

Why should we connect to the divine? What is the purpose of it?
In Japji sahib, Guru Nanak wrote the answer

• Mane surt hove man budh, mane Sagal bahvan ki sudh.
• Mane mug na chale panth, mane dharma seti sanbandh.

When one starts listening to the Naam / the vibration of sound, his mind and intellect becomes one with the higher consciousness and thus become aware of all spheres of existence. This awareness that Gods essence is present in every being, makes a person see everyone as equal. Then such a person shows equal love and respect for all because such a person concerns himself with the true dharma / ultimate justice. Then he is not worried about promoting the rules of his religious creed / sect/ path as better than other religions.

He realises that without Gods grace, one can not know the true path. He realises that it's not about competing with the other religion or the other human being. It's about sharing the resources God provided for everyone and these natural resources are not to be hoarded by a few. That's why Guru Nanak stipulated three basic rules of  Kirat karo, Vand chako, Naam japo.

Until one mediates on Naam / vibration of sound, one has a beggar mentality. Beggars only take, they don't give anything back to any person, or society at large. Guru  says to give up this mentality of always begging for more material goods. Start sharing - 'Vand'.

On the other hand, for those who are physically and metally capable Guru Nanak expects his followers to work and earn a living and not rely on welfare or charity. This is called Kirat.

If a new world could be established in which these three principals are adhered to by everyone and everyone works for a living, shares their earnings and knowledge, and meditated to become one with higher consciousness on a daily basis; how peaceful would such a world be! There would be no need for so many religions, governments, political boundaries and bank accounts.

Now contemplate on your own actions and judge yourself to see if you are affiliated to God and True Justice or just to a small sect of a religion to gain a sense of belonging and acceptance and possibly for the need to be recognised as a good person.

Get rid of the fake goodness and start thinking about humanity as one. There are no rights, only privileges. We are lucky to be living in a rich land with lots of natural resources that help us have a good living. others may not be so lucky, so share a little.

Don't just recite your daily prayers like a parrot, become one with the divine / higher conciousness everyday; mediate a little - Naam Japo